He’s Just a Little Boy


Thaddeus Howze reminds us that our sons are not put on this earth to help us accomplish the things we wanted for ourselves.

As men we look at our sons, sometimes without realizing it, and remember all that we want for ourselves. We want them to enjoy the feelings of success in sports we, ourselves, may never had enjoyed. We want them to enjoy the social success with their peers that we may never been able to fathom when we were their ages.
And so we drive them hard. We drive them to succeed. We push them to catch, to throw, to run, to shoot, to be better at everything than we were at their age. Like it or not, we admonish them to be better than we were.
But here is the truth. It’s not about you. It’s not about him being a representation of you. It’s not about your having a second chance to live vicariously through your son. It isn’t. And that is a hard thing to admit.Because, if you are lucky, will see yourself again and again in your son. When he goes to bat, when he is on the field somewhere, when he struggles with his homework, when he fails in a spelling bee, when he scrubs out on his brand new bicycle. When he goes to high school, when he stays out late, when he doesn’t get into the college you think he should. When he defies you and tells you to drop dead.He is as he should be. When he is a little boy, the man he becomes is directly proportional to the love, support and willingness to let him succeed or fail on his own merits. Teach him to play, teach him to excel, teach him to fail well.

Then step back and let him grow. Be there with him both when he succeeds and, more importantly, when he fails. Both have lessons he will need to learn and no one will ever teach him better than you.

Except maybe mom, but we’ll keep that under our hat. He’s not a man yet. And every day you spend with him will make him the man he’s supposed to be. And that’s not you.

And that’s okay. Grow with him.

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About Thaddeus Howze

Thaddeus Howze was a New York native and found his way to the West Coast as a consequence of his military service. He's a California-based technology executive and author whose non-fiction and online journalism has appeared in publications such as The Enemy, Black Enterprise Online, Urban Times, the Good Men Project, and Astronaut.com. Thaddeus Howze has published two books, Hayward's Reach (2011) and Broken Glass (2013). He maintains a nonfiction blog on science and technology at A Matter of Scale (bit.ly/matterofscale). He writes speculative fiction at hubcityblues.com.

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