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About Roe Wade

Roe Wade is obviously a pseudonym for a guy who is going through a midlife change and crisis. My fondest hope is that I come out the other side without hurting my family, growing a ponytail, buying a Miata and asking a woman young enough to be my daughter to marry me. Everything in this story is true.


  1. CajunMick says:

    A terse read. Well done.

  2. Thanks for sharing.

    This makes me feel a little better about looking into male birth control. I’d had very mixed feelings about it.

    It’s also an interesting look at post-recovery relationships and “growing up.” I’m going to have to think about that some more. My friends and family regularly mock me for feeling old and stressing about growing up (considering I’m in my 20s), but I really think they just don’t understand what the concept means to recovering/recovered addicts.

    • Roe Wade says:

      @Andrew There is no recovered addict- recovery is like a shark; move forward or drown.

    • @Andrew. Growing up is not a merit badge…..
      I can assure you that had I been sober a little longer- she would be a emotional and geographic memory.
      The decision process was flawed.

      • You know, recovery is like a shark is what they told me in my meetings. I have to say, I don’t think I agree. I really have no desire for the kind of life I was living again, and my body reacts negatively to my old drug of choice now so there’s no pleasure involved. Then again, it’s possible that I was never a “true” addict, regardless of my history of substance abuse. I certainly didn’t fit the standard mold, in any case.

        As for growing up, I certainly believe you but I can’t seem to convince myself deep down. It’s almost like the more responsibility I take, the further away I think I can get from who I used to be. It feels like I’m running from the back of my mind. I know it’s a psychotic thought process and is likely to create more problems in the future (I have what seems to be a couple good ones brewing up right now) but can’t really see any good alternatives other than drinking a lot of tea and quietly freaking out in my corner.

        It just feels reassuring to think that I’m not the only one who has ever felt like taking on commitments is a way to… I don’t know… Atone? Prove a change? Keep what I have? It’s hard to define. In any case, it’s comforting to know others have come this way.

        Regarding the woman, I can believe it. You know what they say: “Your first year in the program you can have all the sex you want, and your second year you can include another person in it.” Not that that’s any comfort, I know, and not that I took that advice either, but I’m glad you have finally managed to straighten out that kink.

  3. Wow. This is a powerful story, and it raises some very important questions about healthy relationships, whose responsibility birth control is, and the wisdom of staying in an unhealthy marriage. It’ll take me a while to get my head around all of it. Thank you for writing it.

  4. Roe Wade says:

    @Sexless- a while, try 22 years and toss your hands up in the air. The last one was all on me…
    Within a marriage my rights to input on producing progeny are multiple times more appropriate than in my former relationships.
    F me once shame on you, F me twice shame on me, F me 3x and I must be into the pain….
    Oh and let’s not pretend that this was a health relationship,for very long….
    That horse bolted the barn before “I Do”…..
    However much we both wanted a healthy relationship, we built on a foundation of hope and sand.

    I hand you a gun, it’s chamber is loaded, the safety is disengaged & you shoot me accidentally.
    Whose fault?
    Yours?- You should never touch the trigger without checking the load, twice.
    Mine?- Only a fool hands a  firearm in a lethal condition to another fool.
    Who cares?- Our lives are changed forever.

    To belabor the analogy- while most people would blame the owner of the gun; I’m the fool for believing the firing pin was removed, I knew I was supplying live shells. 

    Every pregnancy irrevocably affects the life arc of the people involved, parents and child- abortion, miscarriage or live birth..

  5. Ron Cowie says:

    That sounds like a life of joy and complication.


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