Josh Bowman talks about what led him to eventually start seeing a therapist.
Note: I have just started seeing a therapist. I think it’s going well…I don’t really know how to evaluate success at this point in the process.
- I have had depression for a while. It comes and goes, but it sure would help to get to the root of it.
- I have had anxiety too. Even writing this post makes me anxious. So does being late for things. Also social situations. Working out helps to deal with this, but it’s not a 100% solution.
- I stopped drinking a few months ago, and all this emotional stuff came up. It makes me think that I was self-medicating. I miss drinking, it’s awesome…but my therapist thinks it’s probably best (and I agree) not to drink for a while until I sort some of my shit out.
- I’m not good with confrontation. I’d like to get better at it. And if you don’t like it….well…that’s fine. I mean, you have a different opinion so…I’m sorry.
- I’m not great at saying “no” definitively to projects or tasks. Again, I’d like to get better at that. NO! Ah that felt good.
- I want to sort out my issues with my family with somebody outside and neutral. It helps to see my issues framed by an outsider. Like that Camus book (not really).
- I think I lost a lot of the confidence and joie de vivre that I used to have when I was younger. Sometimes I listen to “Like a Rock” by Bob Seger, and I’m like “yeah. Yeah Bob. Yeah.”
- A lot of other people get solid jokes out of revelations they had with their therapists, and I figured…hey, maybe I’ll at least get some material out of my emotional inadequacies.
- Therapy is sometimes maligned, but I think a lot of mental health issues are misunderstood or misread. There could be physiological or other reasons for depression that you just can’t work through with a six pack, you know?
- Uh…cause it’s worth it.