l found myself reaching our epilogue
Before I’d finished editing the prologue
I bookmarked the moments it all fell apart
And ended up with every page marked
Our canvas shattered beneath my paintbrush
Though I had only meant to paint with a feather
I tried to create a masterpiece
But you only had eyes for someone else’s frame
We played roles we should have abandoned
Trapped in a play which had a better ending without us
You pretended so well I swore you loved me
Until I realized I had started pretending too
We tore down barriers only for me to find your hands rebuilding them
We swam toward the surface only for you to be the one pulling me under
We wanted to reach for the stars, but you sent me searching at dawn
We climbed to the top only for you to pray I’d fall
You tried to love me only because you knew you never could
You fought to win a war I never knew we were in
You wanted the world to see you could do it
And I forgot I had the legs to walk away
I traced your name like a promise written into my bones
Yet you were more foreign to me than any stranger’s face
I memorized the song you taught me
Only to realize I had mistaken you for music you could never be
I wanted you to be the one
But maybe I should’ve asked if you’d signed up
I was busy writing my wedding vows
While you were busy rehearsing your goodbye
I wish I had watched the forecast at the start
I wish I had seen the wounds that were never mine to stitch
I wish I could have been the one to fix your heart
But I had never been searching for a project to finish
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This post was previously published on medium.com.
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