This is a comment by Seth Mullins on the post “Stepping Off“.
“My most intimate encounters with the ‘logic’ of suicide have come from my own internal battles. I find it ironic that these debates were primarily mental—one’s heart, I think, is scarcely involved in any decision to end life—because there seems to be no reasoning behind such a choice. But when you consider the recourses that the average person has in moments of black despair—scientific creeds that insist that life, feeling and consciousness was all just a meaningless accident anyway; religious dogma that insists that one’s nature is tainted; spiritualistic doctrines that maintain that this world is illusory, etc.—the simple logic of it can seem all too apparent. All these sources of suffering, and one simple act that seems to offer release from them …
“In those moments, there was always the small voice in me that protested, despite all of my mind’s ‘evidence’. I came to think of this part of me as my soul, and I felt how the soul always chooses life and hope. Nowadays whenever I hear of someone taking their own life I find myself wishing that they just could’ve held out long enough to hear that voice and listen to it. To see their life through ITS eyes.
“Thanks for your open and sensitive treatment of this really hard topic, Keith.”
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Strangely Seth, at the moment of a reckless vulnerability I think we look for evidence of ourselves against the evidence experienced with and presented by others. I agree with you brother and I believe the soul accepts only one answer and only one currency in exchange for hope; to exist.