Karl Moyse knew this year would bring him great things, but he never anticipated fatherhood would be one of them. Filled with a newly-realized love and joy, he shares his feelings and hopes for his unborn child.
This year was my becoming. I predicted my 33rd year would be a powerful one. It would be my year and thus far it has completely blown out any expectation I would have placed upon it. I came into it single, unsure where I was heading but knowing change was upon me.
I would never had thought a free ticket to see the Red Hot Chili Peppers would have changed my life. The giver of this ticket became my friend, my soul-mate, my fiancée and now the soon to be mother of our child. With dreams of a move East and new adventures of a new life together, I find myself reflecting on a new title, a new label I have never considered before, I think and dream about becoming a father and of being a dad.
My mind races, so much to share, so much to talk about, to do, to read, yet all I want to do is reach out to the beautiful soul that is soon to appear in my life. The ultimate reflection of the love we have, combined in this new being. To that beautiful soul I have these words.
To my unborn child:
Already I love you, yet we haven’t met. I wonder who you will be, what you will be like, what you will become, I wonder …
This journey you are to embark on, the finite years. So much to learn, to grow, to see and become.
Your becoming will be constant; events, experience and environments will shape your life, your soul and guide your journey. The path isn’t always straight, the destinations not always as expected, but the outcomes can be the greatest of gifts. I have so much to teach you, yet so much more to learn. Learning how to see the world through the eyes of a child again will be magical. To see the wonder in every new experience and be full of joy for each new day.
I wept tears of joy when I first knew you were here, and wept more when I saw you inside of your beautiful mother for the first time. No doubt when you are born I will weep the most euphoric tears I have known. The thought of it is humbling, a treasure. Our little miracle of life.
Out of love you became, a journey of two coming together. A deep gratitude and happiness that cannot be explained, deeper than the deepest oceans and the furthest reaches of space, but brighter than the sun and the twinkling of the stars. A feeling that can only be felt in the moment of silence, of being … to know just how much love there is. True love really is the greatest gift we can experience, and when the time is right, you will know it and I will be happy for you, my child.
Your mother is beautiful—a most elegant soul. I get lost in her voice, her words and her ways. She is the only person I have truly loved, from the inside out. In that love you came through. May you share in our love, may you share in her beauty, may your voice captivate and inspire many along your life’s path. Move with the wind, swim in the oceans, enjoy the sunsets and energize by the sunrise
Words are important, actions more powerful. Be true to yourself, chase those dreams, always believe you can achieve whatever your heart desires. Nurture your soul in the real things. They are ever present and bring so much happiness. Build great relationships, enjoy the most amazing food, see the diversity of the world and celebrate the richness it has to offer. Live a life of no regrets, do not give into fear, even when fear may feel like it will overpower you, do not give in.
There will be times of sadness, of loss, of loneliness. Times of struggle and of feeling your soul stripped bare. We have been there, in our own ways; they are the most painful and beautiful experiences you can have. They will shape you in ways I can never. Make you stronger than you knew possible and give you a greater sense of self than all the knowledge and wisdom of the universe. Embrace these times, for through this journey in the darkness you will find great light.
Know one thing, I am here. Whatever your troubles, it is not too much. If you can’t face it alone, we can face it together. Whenever you seek inspiration I will try and be your spark. Whenever you seek comfort, my shoulder is yours. If you are lost, whatever wisdom or guidance I have is yours.
You are free to be who you wish, free to be whatever you like, I can only wonder. Already I love you and we haven’t yet met.