I want you to have the experience of Love.
Not the goopy Hollywood, swelling-orchestra rendition. I want your experience to be raw and all-consuming – like a bonfire, roaring into the black blue of night. May you find a love that burns so bright it, it changes who you are.
May you risk it all and win – may you feel her outstretched hand grasping yours, right when you thought all was lost.
May you feel her hands softly running across your face and little affectionate kisses on your neck. May you feel her head resting on your shoulder one warm Summer evening and know that you are adored beyond words.
May you fight over the dumb insignificant things, not because of what happened, but because of what they meant. May you angrily pack your bags and storm out the door, only to be stopped at your car when you realize that what you’re doing isn’t what you truly wanted. May you realize that what you’re avoiding is the shame of admitting that you might be wrong. May you find the courage to come back and ask for forgiveness.
May you find a way to rebuild that love, may you forgive yourself and grow – more slowly and painfully than you would have liked. May you look back at what you’ve built together and regret nothing.
May you come to see how accepting yourself means you stop covering up the little thoughts and ideas you normally quash because – “it isn’t the right time”. May you learn that it’s better to be the best version of you than a faded photocopy of another.
May you find the courage to burn bright despite the fear of being fully seen.
May you learn to receive as generously as you give.
May you forgive yourself and others for being less than perfect.
May you learn to feel the pulsing beat of fear and embrace it like an old friend; to know that your discomfort is the beginning of the next great adventure.
May you find it in your heart to forgive your father …for everything he was and was not. May you come to understand him fully and with compassion – as an imperfect scared human, doing his best at something he was never trained to do.
I hope you never take anyone’s word for it. I hope that you have the experiences you crave and need. I hope you choose to honor your warrior’s soul rather than someone else’s opinions.
I hope you blaze a new path for others to follow.
May you grieve what has been lost and what could have been.
May you laugh so hard you cry.
May you feel a gratitude so deep it moves you in a way nothing ever has.
May you deeply love and allow your walls down long enough to be loved back.
May you give your heart completely and without expectations.
More than anything I want you to live.
To feel your life fully. To heed the call of the path you’ve been afraid to take, so that when all is said and done, and when your time comes, you pass with a grin on your lips and a burning song in your heart.
May you live without regret.