Anthony Goulet shares how seeing ourselves through the lies that lie within us creates a distorted view of who and what we truly are.
Many people have been beaten down by internal and external lies that they are undeserving of goodness, blessings, miracles, and gifts. In this feeling of unworthiness they consciously and unconsciously sabotage any and every beautiful opportunity and relationship that appears in their life. Some refer to this as self-sabotage, I refer to this as internal self-mutilation. A completely mutilated view of the beauty of their true self that the Creator of the Universe continually attempts to remind them of.
When they are given a compliment, they reject it instead of simply saying thank you. When they are told they are handsome, beautiful, lovable, forgiven, and intelligent, they feel good for a moment, but soon after they take the compliment and affirmation of their greatness and rip it to shreds. Why? Because the barbwires and broken pieces of lies within them created a self-mutilating minefield that shreds compliments and affirmations of greatness before they can fully digest and awaken the ancient memory that love created them exactly like itself, and restore their thinking and vision to see the Holiness that they will always be.
Seeing ourselves through the lies that lie within us, lies most often imposed upon us through trauma, creates a distorted view of who and what we truly are. We are Sacred, Blessings, Miracles, and Gifts. No, we have not always been treated as such, and we certainly have not always treated ourselves or others this way, yet the time to start is now. I have known people who never spent one day or night in prison, yet have sentenced themselves to a lifetime of incarceration by rejecting anything good, and sabotaging any beauty attempting to enter their lives by rejecting it. After they reject a blessing they tell themselves and others that the blessing left them because they are unworthy. Do you see how this works? We reject who and what we are, which is a Sacred miracle, blessing, and gift, then in our own denial of what and who we truly are, we deny goodness, then tell ourselves and others that we are unworthy of goodness because it keeps leaving us.
Our beauty, blessings, miracles, and gifts can never leave us because we are them, yet we can leave our Holy perception and replace it with one of lies that speaks to us about guilt, blame, and shame. And in this unholy perception of using the same stick others used to beat us with to measure our worth we will always find a reason to reject our true selves and anything that reflects the blessing, miracle, and gift that we are.
When you feel unworthy of a blessing, accept it anyway.
When you feel undeserving of a miracle, welcome it anyway.
When you feel unmerited of a gift, receive it anyway.
The blessings, miracles, and gifts are never just for you anyway.
When you deny them you deny others of them.
When you receive them, you accept them for you and those they are supposed to get to through you.
Blessings, miracles, and gifts will often appear when you feel unworthy for three reasons:
To remind you that you are worthy of blessings, miracles, and gifts.
To show you that you are a blessing, miracle, and gift.
To move through you to remind and show others that they too are worthy of and truly are nothing less than a blessing, miracle, and gift.
Originally appeared at This Holy Instant
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