For the first time in my life, I feel trapped. This is what it feels like to be in a sexless marriage. It’s without a doubt the loneliest that I have ever felt.
I hate to keep zeroing in on just the sex…because it’s also an affectionless marriage and a romance-less marriage and a marriage with little to no physical contact other than the occasional platonic kiss goodbye or goodnight. I am feeling defeated.
I am tired of chasing after someone that doesn’t want to be caught.
I am tired of climbing into bed with someone that doesn’t want to touch me.
I am tired of knowing that every time I bring up the subject it will be met with anger and an eye-roll.
I am tired of being made to feel like a total piece of shit because I want to enjoy sex with my wife more than 3 times a year.
I am tired of being told that sex is all I want or think about.
I am tired of looking at a future bereft of passion, intimacy, sensuality and romance.
I am tired of looking around and seeing no escape route from these feelings.
I feel trapped.
A version of this post was previously published on Medium and is republished here with permission from the author.
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