They were told getting married young would lead to divorce. Sixteen years later this man wants to say “thank you” and “I love you.”
Even before I knew you, I was head over heels in love with you.
I went through many relationships feeling a void, I knew something amazing and unbelievable was missing, I just didn’t know what it was.
The day that I saw you was the day I had my first heart attack, I literally couldn’t breathe and didn’t want to breathe until I could hear just one word of your heavenly voice.
When you did finally talk to me, I couldn’t hear any sound from the rest of the world, your voice was in my head and it pierced my heart, I couldn’t believe this moment was really happening.
From that day on I had a mission, I had to get to know you, I had to become friends with the love of my life, I couldn’t think of anything else.
You didn’t know what to think of me as we got to know each other; it’s because I just didn’t know how to act. How could my words and actions justify being able to even exist in front of your absolute beauty?
We got past that awkward phase; I finally got enough courage to talk to you, but every time my heart-felt like it was going to burst.
As time went on we became friends, and after friend’s, destiny took over and we started to become more. We could clearly see the truth.
I thought of you everyday, and dreamt about you every night. Every relationship before ours seemed like a colossal waste of time, I wish I could go back and just have found you from the very first one.
I remember our first kiss; it was one of the greatest days of my life. If I had died that day, I would have died the happiest man alive. Since that day I have to kiss you at least once a day or it will be a bad day.
We talked and talked, we got to know each other better, we knew where things were leading, and it just made sense.
I knew what I wanted, I knew what would make my life complete: YOU! So it was time for me to man up, it was time to make our bond an eternal bond. I verbalized what my heart already knew, that you were the only one for me, I was going to ask you to marry me.
That day was the most nervous I have or ever will be, my knees and teeth were shaking all day. I picked you up and told you I had something to say, it was more of a whisper.
I asked you the question that I had been waiting all my life to ask you, and to my surprise and absolute delight you said YES!
The rest is history right? We got married and lived happily ever after…….
This isn’t a movie and I have to tell the truth. We got married at eighteen; we were a couple of kids who already knew everything. Or so we thought.
There were some amazing times, but also some rough times. We started to understand the words, “for better or worse”. We definitely found out what they mean and are still learning.
So after all we’ve been through in the last sixteen years, this is my love letter to you, which is really my promise.
For the rest of the time the Lord gives us together, I’m not going to settle into a comfortable lifestyle. I’m going to do all the things I should have been doing.
I’m going to listen to you more. I’m going to discover the words beyond them audibly; I’m going to hear the true meaning.
I going to put you first in all that I do, even when it comes down to that last piece of pizza, that piece is yours.
I’m going to clean and cook. I know how hard you work, and I know that you need a break; I’m going to be your break.
When you are struggling, I’m going to do everything in my power to make you feel better. I’m not going to get mad or try to guilt you into feeling better.
I’m going to stop yelling, stop getting mad over the stupid things that nine times out of ten were my fault anyways.
I’m going to work as hard as I can to leave you and our children a lasting legacy that will continue when I’m gone. If I die today, I don’t want you to have to lift a muscle, just take care of the kids with no financial stress.
I’m going to be the man you married, the man you dreamed of when you were a little girl, your true love.
Talk is cheap and this is the last time I’m going to talk, from here on it will only be action.
You have been the best thing that has ever happened to my life and I’m going to prove that by how I act and treat you. I love you more than life itself. I love you more than myself.
This is my promise; this is my love letter to you on our anniversary. Happy sixteenth anniversary sweetheart. Here’s to many more.
Thank you for all that you have done, thank you for being you. Thank you for putting up with me, thank you for forgiving me.
I don’t deserve you, but I thank God everyday that I have the privilege to be your husband, I will always be grateful for that honor.
16 years ago today you made me the happiest man in the world Tanya Rochelle Constable, thank you and I love you. Happy Anniversary!
With all my love,
Kimanzi T. Constable
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