When does a gay guy lose his virginity? The answers are surprisingly personal.
The definition of sex can be as messy as the act itself. Hard and dry, sex means coitus: 1 penis + 1 vagina = 1 ejaculation. The dictionary does not mention clitoral stimulation, pegging, scissoring or even dry humping. Sex is not sex unless it is between heterosexuals and there is a passage of genetic material.
Queer men have a lot of sex. If sex is about passing on genetic material then there are gay genes all over the place. These acts have helped redefine the concept of sex from a biological necessity to a sharing of intimacy.
If sex isn’t sex, then when does a gay guy lose his virginity? Can a person be gay if he’s never been with a guy or only slept with girls? What is second base for a gay man—a kiss on the cheek or a gangbang? The answers are surprisingly personal.
We asked men who have sex with men what virginity means to them. They shared stories about their first girlfriends, anonymous hookups, and waiting for that special guy.
We want to hear your stories, too. Tell us below how you’d answer.
“It’s a gradual process”
Sure, everyone says you lose your virginity the first time you make whoopie. Wrong. Virginity is not a binary thing. To me, it’s about knowing what you want and what the hell you’re doing. There are lots of 15-year-olds out there dipping it in on prom night, but Lord knows they’ll be virgins for a while. I didn’t know shit from Shinola until my mid-20s. Like a great philosopher of our time said back in 1967, “Are you experienced?” If not, well, it’s like the old truckers say: “If you can’t find it, grind it.”
I consider losing your gay V to mean penetration. Someone puts his dick in your ass or vice versa. But I understand why gay men don’t always agree. Anal sex can be so insanely personal that it exists in a different realm. It’s like there is sex and then there’s anal sex. I haven’t done it in a long time because it’s so intimate and I haven’t found the right penis lately. When I hook up with dudes, sometimes I’ll just say we had sex even if we just had oral. It’s easier than explaining, “Oh, we didn’t have that kind of sex.” That being said, I still consider anal sex to be the definition of intercourse, not oral.
—Ryan O’Connell, writer/editor at Thought Catalog
“Usually, you’re gonna get f**ked before you f**k someone”
What does it take to lose your gay virginity? $20.
Virginity is something that should be built around positive emotional connections and interpersonal relationships. It is to be explored with someone when you are truly intimate with them in an ongoing monogamous relationship, not for the casual hookup. You can call me idealistic, optimistic, and romantic, but whatever you do, don’t say that it is hopeless. What I’m saying is about both virginity and sex. Give it some value and you won’t regret it. To quote one of my personal idols: “Gonna give you all my love, boy / My fear is fading fast / Been saving it all for you / ’Cause only love can last” (Madonna).
—John, higher-education administrator
Breaking the seal
The only education I had about gay sex in high school came from the Internet and library books. Most of those books were about HIV and AIDS and I assumed that if I was gay, I was going to get sick. I made a lot of mistakes when I was a teenager. I saw sex as something to get over with—something to practice so when you found the person you wanted to be with, you’d be good at it. I didn’t feel like I lost my virginity until I had unprotected sex for the first time. I wish I can say it was with someone special or a memorable experience. The greatest advice I’ve ever heard about sex was from Kate Bornstein, author of My Gender Workbook. She said never fuck someone you wouldn’t want to be.
“I don’t remember ever having virginity”
In the matters of war, men, and hearts, you never really experience life until so close to death. That is what all those war movies typically reinforce, the “awakening” phenomena that transcends innocence and naivete. This truth is, virginity is a progression through experience. One might peer pressure into a sexual encounter but may never know the truth of such an experience, in that respect, just emulating, not even fundamentally grasping the condition of love therein.
“I answer as a gay man, but they’re expecting a straight response”
It bothers me that there is a difference between gay and straight virginity. If you care about someone enough and are intimate with them for the first time, you’re no longer a virgin. A penis doesn’t have to go into a specific hole. As soon as clothes come off and you’ve got two naked people wondering what to do next, you’ve hit home run, baby.
Video interviews were conducted by Katie Baker in San Francisco.
(Photo via noonewould.tumblr.com)