For these women the decision was not easy or clear, but it was one that needed to be made.
By Andra Brosh, PhD
In my work with divorce, I have seen many types of marital endings. Sometimes there’s an affair while some endings stem from nothing more than dissatisfaction, falling out of love or a deep unhappiness that far outweighs the challenges of getting divorced. There are no right or wrong reasons for ending a marriage, and marriages are ended as often by women as by men. Both parties struggle differently, but as a culture, we have an easier time comprehending men leaving good women than women leaving good men.
I have been on a bit of a listening tour lately, and in that process, I have heard many, many stories from women who have left their husbands. I have also heard from the men who’ve been left, and their stories are riddled with the same confusion, hurt, loss and fear that any of us might presume we would only hear from a woman who has been left.
This man is kind, loving, loyal, committed and wants to be married. He may have lost sight of his own happiness, over-focused on the children, given up his career to stay home as the caregiver, or dampened his passions in favor of responsibility, but he never thought his partner would leave.
The woman on the other side of this man, the one who has left, expresses guilt, relief, sadness, and fear. She is uncertain about her choice and talks about taking a leap of faith, and trusting that this harder decision of leaving will not be as bad as the deep loneliness she has felt in the marriage. She knows this might not be true, and she often wonders if it was worth it.
Through my interviews, I have found that there are five common reasons women leave, and none of them directly involve an intentional act of harm or infidelity. In all cases, the decision was not easy or clear, but it was one that needed to be made. But these are not the only reasons women leave good men, these are just a few, but overall they are honest, courageous and deserve mentioning.
1. She married too young:
She married her high school or college sweetheart, and after 20 plus years of marriage, she begins to question her own happiness. She starts longing for something different and time missed, and she wonders about something better. After painstakingly making the choice to pursue the next chapter, she leaves hoping she will find what she’s looking for.
2. She’s the breadwinner:
She chose a career that provides for the family and agreed to carry the burden as the provider. Over time, this wears on her, and she comes to resent him for not having to work. He becomes unattractive to her, and she soon realizes that she can do it alone and feel happier. While writing a check to her Ex will feel crazy, the choice to leave and the struggle ahead seem easier than staying.
3. She’s done nurturing:
She fulfilled her need for nurturing with her children, but now they need less or have left the nest. His needs become overwhelming, and she just wants to focus on herself for once. She begins to search for herself and discovers that she is missing a big piece of her soul and that journey to find it is a solo one. She hopes her marriage can tolerate her pilgrimage into herself, but discovers that it’s just not possible so she’s forced to choose between the two.
4. She feels empty:
She has given up parts of herself for the relationship, but the return on investment hasn’t been enough. She is lonely and starving for an emotional connection because the intimacy in the marriage has been neglected for too long. She tries to explain it to him, but he doesn’t see her needs. The pain becomes too great and she has to get out to survive.
5. She gets ignited:
She tries something new or deepens her connection to herself and discovers something exciting and long forgotten. She tries to feel that spark within herself while in the marriage, but the light gets blown out each time she wants to share it. It becomes clear that she will need to make a choice between her own inner fire and the marriage, and ultimately she chooses herself.
A woman has powerful needs to be filled and gifts to be given. Over the course of her life, she becomes more and more attuned to herself, and less focused on the trappings of what it means to be a woman in the broader culture. Every woman ages but not all women grow and evolve as part of that aging process.
For those that do want to learn and explore are strong, and there is very little that can get in the way of that transformation. Her marriage can become one of the obstacles she has to overcome in order to get on the path to wholeness, and what she seeks can become more important than what she’s committed to.
This article originally appeared on Divorced Moms
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