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In today’s world, I find myself more conscious and more sad at all the evil in this world.
How can people can kill each other so easily? How can people discriminate and hurt others?
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I do not fear growing older. I continue to push myself to do what I like to do. What will be; will be. I will do my best to play the hand that God, or some supreme being, has dealt me. I would hope and pray that people could be less self-centered and more empathetic to others to minimize conflict in this world.
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I retired in 2007, realizing after the passing of my parents, I had only so much time left.
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I have always been body conscious but became a bit more so as I had more time. However, in 2004, I discovered flying trapeze. This has always been a childhood fantasy as my grandfather use to take me to see Ringling and Cole Brothers set up their tents early in the morning. I never thought I would have an opportunity to try flying trapeze nor be able to do it. I got caught on my first try, and I was hooked. Getting back to the platform is my bucket list goal. I am getting more consistent in catching the bar after turning off the catcher. When I get more consistency, I will work on the remount skill.
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I also returned to my high school and college interest of theatre. I began performing again as a supernumerary in a local opera company and that led to auditioning for roles in a local community theatre. I am now involved in a local Shakespeare group which reads and performs his plays.
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Moreover, I love to be nude, which motivated me to be a figure model. After taking a workshop for figure models, I began to get jobs at colleges, universities, and private organizations. I love to create interesting poses to challenge the artists. Together with trapeze and figure modeling, I am more conscious and give more time to keeping fit and looking good. I am, I confess, rather vain.
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While in retirement mode and figure modeling, I discovered more about my sexuality. I am definitely bisexual, though my wife does not know that. We have great sex, and she satisfies some of my desires, but not all. I discovered through modeling that I enjoy men. I now have a mutual married buddy, who is no doubt my best friend.
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