What CC Moses has learned from Jesus about beauty.
Beauty within Solitude: A Poem
I have to stay away from soul music
and delicious food
and people kissing
or anything that reminds me of everything that I don’t have
I keep going back to that bridge
the bridge in my mind called misery,
and the pain in my heart that keeps telling me to jump;
God keeps calling me back from the edge.
Every time I’m there,
Jesus whispers in my ear:
beauty is not sexiness, beauty is completeness;
then I’m happy again.
I’m a firm believer in the walls talking because
I often have conversations with them in my spare time.
We usually talk about death and suicide.
Then I hear Jesus whisper in my ear:
“Practice being present.”
then I’m happy again.
There are those days that I wake up; I go take a shower and look in the mirror and see the walls that are blocking me from the love that was already present.
I say to myself “I’m ugly”
and that’s why I’m alone.
Then Jesus whispers to me and says:
“Even in your ugliness you cannot erase the beauty that is already there;
you can only erase your realization of it.”
He goes on to say, “Until the end of your journey
I’ll be there to remind you
You’re not alone.”
I was beautiful again.
—C.C. Moses
CC Moses is a 25 year old writer with an over-active imagination. He aspires to go back to California one day.
Beautiful. A true warrior. Please keep expressing your truth.
From Dana F, via facebook: C.C. – please don’t ever stop writing, or expressing or heart-breaking. Yours is a voice that needs to be heard, felt and honored. Thanks for sharing your life.
Some comments from facebook:
Laura N – beautiful poem. Brought tears.. I know how that feels! My heart expands out toward you, Moses, from Chicago!
Ryan M – Great poem. Thanks for posting this.
John S – hang in there– obviously opening up to something real. I liked hearing his voice here.