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Crystal Valentine – ‘I Am Black Before Woman in February’


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00:02
I am black before woman in February,
00:07
woman before black on Sundays,
00:11
queer before black on Pride Day.
00:16
My blacks, they posted up, sniper-ready,
00:20
perched on the balcony of my mouth, always prepared.
00:25
My woman shudders in the center of my throat,
00:28
back hand twitching, waiting for her turn to speak.
00:32
My queer be playing ghost
00:35
is only allowed in my house when my daddy ain’t home,
00:39
always gets caught sneaking out the back window,
00:42
running away from his shotgun.
00:45
My identities segregate me, split me into thirds,
00:49
hate being in the same place at the same time.
00:52
I am queer when getting my pussy sucked,
00:55
queer before black when I tell my girlfriend I love her,
00:59
black and never queer when I tell my mother I love her.
01:02
At family reunions, Thanksgiving dinners, poetry shows,
01:06
they fight over my mouth.
01:07
I am black when saying “Fuck you,”
01:10
black when my tongue stumbles up my mouth like a fistfight,
01:13
black and not queer when Freddie Gray died,
01:15
queer before black when [Akeya Boyd] died.
01:18
They always fighting over my trust.
01:21
Sometimes I go to sleep a queer woman
01:23
and wake up in a casket.
01:25
Sometimes I go to sleep thinking about the bible
01:28
and wake up with my queer burning on the other side of the mattress.
01:31
Sometimes it’s my black holding the match.
01:34
Sometimes it’s my woman holding the water back.
01:36
Black tells me it’s my only.
01:39
The first thing I see when I wake up,
01:42
woman tells me she’s my future,
01:44
gave black its first breath.
01:46
Queer is just happy
01:48
we have not burnt its seat from the table.
01:50
My black and my queer don’t even speak
01:52
when they’re in the same body together.
01:54
I think black is jealous of all of queer’s Instagram followers,
01:59
is afraid queer’s dead bodies would get more likes and retweets.
02:04
My queer, black, and woman could be murdered in the same ditch
02:08
but think they’ll attend different funerals,
02:11
and isn’t that what they want?
02:14
Black cocks the gun.
02:16
Woman loads the bullet.
02:20
Queer pulls the trigger.
02:23
And we all drop dead.
02:26
(cheers and applause)


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