Miles Hodges – Count On It [Video]

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Miles Hodges, performing for the Striver’s Row.

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every day above ground is a good day for
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me
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faith faith be no easy task
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here
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for me believing in things
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often feels like a game of darts
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when i do indeed believe in something
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someone usually takes that thing and
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nooses it
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to the hip of a train i’ll never be able
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to catch
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no matter how fast i’ll run always
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arrive at the platform an
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inch too late stuck there checking my
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watch like
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how did i not make it like i prayed in
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everything and i watch
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as my faith fades like an outro away
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blurring like gray towards the horizon i
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so
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badly just want things i know
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i can count on
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in this vein i am luckier than ghost
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for when all else fails i know i can
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count on my mother she is still my
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lighthouse
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she is the only infinity tangible enough
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to touch
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without her i have no instruments no
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instruments at all when i fall when i
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fall i know i can count on my father
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if all else fails i can count on him to
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be honest you can count on the fact that
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he done raised me like between rock and
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hard place
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like floor of rainforest with pores that
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swept pride
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oh the wise of that man oh the home of
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those hands that i
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hate hate hate to need need so much but
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but those damn things done taught me
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everything i trust beyond doubt i know i
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can count on my brother and
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and any words here will be a disservice
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but but bro
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i hold you dear and warm like day does
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dawn
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like you’re me soon but but i hope not i
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hope you stay as
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mourning as you are now as full with
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hope and the
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poise of 6am syrupping behind those eyes
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that skyline of a smile so wide yet
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so void of lies i can count on your
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spine and you can count on mine and we
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can
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count on the sky though it’d be gray
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sometimes
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hard to praise sometimes in a world
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where medicine saves lives but
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science seems to do its best to disprove
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god in a world where
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best friends best friends come and go
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like todd but cigarettes stay 20 in a
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pack
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burn straight every time so i can count
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on smoke and i can count on one
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and i can’t count on time or all the
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times that i’ve sinned
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but i also can’t count the times i’ve
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tried again i can count on my pen
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i can count on my heathen i can count on
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my human
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i can count on the seasons to pass and
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reasons not to last the meaning of life
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will elude me and sunsets will seduce me
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but i can count on the mountains
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i can count on the sea i can count on
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the wind i can count on the breeze and
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the trees and the bees like
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like there’s some shell silverstein [ __ ]
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but real [ __ ]
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real [ __ ] real [ __ ] this [ __ ]
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sidewalk don’t end it dips and it curves
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it turns left and it bends sometimes
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back to the beginning
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but there exists no map you’ll never
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know when you’re winning
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and i hate to admit it but i can’t count
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on a goddamn
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thing this is the trauma of
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being mama gonna die one day
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[Music]
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my father’s word will unfurl
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my brother’s smile will curl
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the mountains will crumble will move the
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sea will
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stumble past the levees leave your city
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in a permanent dust you can trust
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that the wind will carry your girl to
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another man’s bed and
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and that’s okay
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i’m learning how to surrender
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and that’s okay i can’t count on
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tomorrow but
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why would i want to because today today
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and only today you are the oldest you
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have ever been
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and the youngest you ever will be
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know that this is one small man with one
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big heart
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in this prison of seven billion
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no happy ending but god does it feel
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good to be
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here
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[Applause]
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thank y’all
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[Applause]
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[Music]

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