Letter From My Ex

I had been in a terrible mindset for a few days beforehand. The old memories I had with Tesla kept coming to my mind.

My emotions were huge to accommodate them for a longer time without showing any resentment.

This really hurts beyond words.

Two sides of my brain keep on telling two contradictory facts. First, I know that Tesla had cheated me in the past. He had a romantic relationship with another girl while he was with me. That’s the reason why I broke up with him. Second, if I had given him a second chance, things might have changed. I might have stayed happily with him. These two thoughts are so contradictory that they made me revolve in a constant spiral wheel.

A part of my brain is not ready to accept the fact that it’s been more than four years since we broke up. He has already moved on, received a degree, moved abroad for his research, and now, is having a baby with his wife. Sometimes, it’s very hard to digest. When everything around me seems to progress with the years, I am still standing at the same point, just replaying old memories in my mind.

Recently, I attended a session on heartbreak to high-value woman. In that session, the healer said to completely detach ourselves from the person we broke up.

Most of the breakups don’t come with a closure. This keeps us questioning a lot about our worth or that person. We start having the feeling of guilt or shame for going through that phase all alone.

The healer has given a task to write a letter on behalf of your ex, giving a proper closure to all your problems.

Here I go. This is a letter from my ex, Tesla, to me, providing me a closure for our breakup. I know it’s really going to be a difficult one because I had to revisit all the memories once again, write it on his behalf. But, I know that if this exercise provides me sense of peace, I will definitely do it.

Dear A Soulful Writer,

I have known you as a person for a long time now. You are such a sweet and creative soul. Your simplicity is what drew me towards you. You are responsible as a person as well. You can manage academics and day-to-day life well. Sometimes, I feel that your vibrant energy may not match mine for long because your aura is huge.

Before I met you, I was in a relationship for six years. When I told you about it, you took it lightly, telling me that if it doesn’t affect the present and future, then you were least worried about it. I liked that spirit of yours. You seemed to me a mature and sensible person who would not delve much into the past. The fact is that I was not still over it. I kept it as a lie.

During the COVID days, our interaction was limited due to a lot of restrictions. I felt distant from you and found someone from my surroundings. I was somewhat attracted to her physically than you. Though we were engaged before that, I could not hold my emotions. I felt really sorry for that.

I felt guilty for playing with your emotions for so long. I cheated you, not you cheated me. You did everything to keep me happy and motivated at my work.

Still, I have no courage to confess this feeling to you. I never wanted to break your heart. But I did so through my act of distancing myself from you.

I am not consistent in keeping my feelings limited to one person. Staying loyal to one person throughout my life is not possible for me. I have been chasing a lot of girls in the past as well, but none turned out to be for my life as a whole.

I want to see you successful in your life in whatever you do.

I hope so, through this letter, you will find closure to our breakup. I also hope so, it will be enough for you to be at peace for a lifetime.

Goodbye Forever,

Tesla

03–11–2025

Have you ever found closure from the person you were in a relationship with for years? If so, what was that? If not, how did you cope with the loss and convince yourself to move on from this phase of missing your partner for a long? Please share your views in the comment section. I would love to read those.

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