Inauguration ~ a ceremony to mark the beginning of something.
The weeks leading up to Inauguration Day 2017, as a survivor of PTSD, were some of the worst yet to be experienced. The fear, the anxiety, the confusion of what this new administration would bring to my life and the lives of so many others of minority, was, at times, more overwhelming than can be imagined.
The tension, the speculation, the apprehension felt palpable in every area of my life. So much so, I found it necessary to withdraw from social media, from written media, from television, even from “coffee shop” conversations I so often heard around me, in order to manage any stress responses occurring and protect my ever so valuable peace.
And yet, the day arrived. Inauguration Day 2017. A day filled with dread for so many. A day filled with dread for myself. A ceremony to mark the beginning of something.
I woke feeling anxious and confused, filled with fear for the future. A fear that felt so deep and so pronounced. I knew, if I were to survive, if we all were to survive, a major internal shift would be required in my mindset and perspective.
As I sat with this fear, I could not help but think of all the other times in history, mine, others and this country’s, that have been filled with fear of the unknown. I also could not help but think of all the times that same fear gave way to something better, stronger, more powerful, and increased freedom. Could I, could we as a country, once again be liberated from that fear? Could we ascend above it, clear it and release it back to Source, to the Universe, to Life Force, where all healing takes place?
I wondered if I took my own personal fear, anxiety, uncertainty, confusion, powerlessness, my shock and brokenness, my helplessness and released back to Source, if that would be enough. If I would be doing my part, my share of the healing for the world and what is yet to come.
I wondered if, after releasing and liberating myself from all that has affected me over the last several weeks back to Source, I could then fill that same space with the love, light and compassion returned to me from creation, allowing me to become the next best higher version of myself, would that be enough? Would it be enough to heal myself, my corner of the Universe, to make a difference in the world around me?
The answer was so simply “Yes,” it almost caught me off guard.
Yes, if I could show just one other person in this world darkness cannot exist where there is light.
If I could show just one other person in this world hate cannot exist where there is love.
If I could show just one other person in this world liberation from pain through self-acceptance, connection to truth, support and unconditional love, then I will have done my part. I will have been the example, the leader, the ground-breaker for those who needed a new path.
So, I gathered all those personal fears, anxieties and beliefs I had been holding for so long and so tightly to, and offered them to Life Force requesting love, compassion and healing be returned in their stead. I released what was stuck no longer serving me and opened myself to trust the connection to my true self.
I embraced the love and compassion returned to me from creation, filling every cell of my body with its light, feeling the glow reach out to those around me, lighting up their lives with love as well.
I allowed forgiveness to flow through me, touching every fear, anxiety, confusion, calming them, soothing them, loving them to resolution and liberation.
I accepted the healing placed upon and within me from Life Force, for all my past, present, future lives, and became present in the healing as if I have always known it.
I watched as all former beliefs and fears became unstuck and dissolve back to God, love and creation. I felt the liberation from the pain, the resolution and healing as the transition and graduation to the next best version of myself occurred.
I marveled, as Source, the Universe, Life Force, God, started flowing through me as me, as I was filled with glowing light, at this shift taking place within me, now fully knowing and believing lightness would overcome darkness, love would overcome hate, good would overcome evil, and the knowledge it could all start with me…my light spread out into the world, my truth spoken to the universe, my love sent to all mankind.
And I knew, in that moment, I would prevail, the country would prevail, the world would prevail. Just as it has done throughout all of history, time and time again. I knew, in that moment, love will always win.
The inauguration was not just a ceremony happening in Washington D.C., it was a ceremony happening in my soul and in my life, in the souls and lives of countless others choosing to make a change, to lead with love, with light, and with goodness.
It was a ceremony to mark the beginning of something better, stronger, more powerful.
A ceremony to mark the beginning of love.
Inauguration Day 2017