when asked if I was suicidal
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I told the doctor about how I called off
00:09
work one day last week to sit on my
00:12
balcony and watch as an old Victorian
00:16
home across the alley was dismantled by
00:19
a crane that for years I watched this
00:23
house pass from one new owner to the
00:26
next each excited by her potential it’s
00:31
sure they could fix her
00:33
each eventually deciding she was too
00:36
much work I told the doctor that I feel
00:40
like that house that I worry my own
00:45
bones might be made of red brick she
00:51
wrote me a prescription for three green
00:55
pills I swallow every day with breakfast
00:59
on the days I forget I am less a person
01:04
and more a flock of hummingbirds in a
01:08
vague person configuration even when I
01:12
remember there are still days I grow
01:16
fifty feet tall and make a mess of
01:20
everything even though I don’t mean to
01:23
even though I really just want
01:26
tenderness even though I know there
01:29
probably are not arms big enough to hold
01:32
me because I am fifty feet tall and this
01:36
makes me want to hide but a cants
01:38
because I’m fifty feet tall despite
01:42
being a fifty foot tall woman I am still
01:47
a woman and not a hollowed-out Victorian
01:52
home being pulled down brick by brick
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and I know that now
02:04
you
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