It’s been five days since I’ve written a post and that should clue you in to how I’ve been feeling lately. I apologize for the lack of prose, but I’m physically ill (the toilet has been my BFF the past couple of days, I’m mentally exhausted, emotionally drained and am so fuckin sick of the bullshit and drama other people are intentionally bringing into my life that I’m about a half step away from the point where I become a hermit and cease all communication with everyone. If I go quiet again for a long period of time, I guess you will realize that these people truly don’t give a shit about me and that they kept pushing. Thanks for letting me rant a bit. On to my blog post.
Today is the day of the week that many radio stations do “Two-Fer Tuesday”. If you don’t know what this is, you’ve obviously never listened to the radio on a regular basis. My Two-Fer Tuesday isn’t radio related, but is still pretty cool. Today I have two big things happening and if things go my way, it could end up being very, very awesome.
My agent is meeting today with the marketing people from a major publishing company. The idea is to see how marketable they think my novel is. This is the beginning of a process that will likely be long and probably stressful, but it’s one I’m hopeful I will get the opportunity to experience.
I’m normally a very optimistic person, but the past few months have taken the happy and positive out of me. I should be nearly done with the book by now, but all the stress and bullshit I alluded to earlier has kept me from writing. My mojo is gone, and like Austin Powers, I need my mojo to be the rockstar that I have the ability to be.
Lately I feel more like one of those crappy 70’s bands who still tours small clubs around the US in hopes of making a few bucks and to keep the aging flame of success lit for one more weekend. I know I have the ability to break back out into the spotlight–I just have to figure out how to get back there.
The second half of the Two-Fer involves my daughter. The Drama Queen turns 14 this weekend and yesterday we sat down with her counselor to work on her high school schedule. It’s hard to believe that she’s going to be in high school starting next week, but she is. Damn I feel old.
My daughter has always enjoyed tennis, but the reality is that she’s not very good. The women’s tennis team at her school is good. Really good. One of the top teams in So. Cal. good. She asked about playing and we discussed the reality of her abilities and I suggested that I talk to the coach to see if there was a way she could get involved with the team this year. My thought was that she could do stats or equipment or something and she could be around the team and part of the team this season and she could practice her butt off in order to try out next season. She thought it sounded reasonable.
I called the coach and spoke with him about the situation. I was completely realistic about her abilities and I described her as, “On the down side of mediocre.” I told him I was trying to be realistic about her and not blow smoke up his ass, only to have her arrive on the court and be less than I professed. I’m just keeping it real, yo.
The dude was all the way cool and explained that he had a couple of other girls who were not very good and that he wanted her to come out to practices this week and give it a shot. He said he was OK with lower skill level in the younger players, as long as they come out, put forth some effort and listen to the coaches.
That being said, Drama Queen starts tennis practice this afternoon. I have no clue how it’s going to go, but I’m hopeful that she puts forth the necessary effort and that she can somehow grab a spot on the team. Considering that she really doesn’t know people at the school, this would be a great way for her to get involved and make some friends. Fingers crossed.
Thanks for indulging me in this little post. I promise you that I’m trying to get back to the normal high quality shit you’re used to and I’m hopeful I can get rid of this additional stress for good. If you’ll excuse me, I’m going to lay down and try to rest for a bit before I take my daughter to high school tennis tryouts. Peace out y’all.
P.S. Speaking of radio, tomorrow night (Wednesday) I make a return to radio with my co-host Wes The Sports Guy on KLBC in Long Beach. It was recently voted the #1 College Station on the West Coast and will be our home until someone wants to hook us up with a paying gig. It’s a lot of fun and I want to invite you to check it out. We’re on from 8-9:30 PM Pacific and we would love it if you would call in and participate. You can listen online and you can even watch the video feed from the studio. You can get the link at www.wesandjr.com.