Lisa Hickey finds something she can believe in. And it has everything to do with “good” and much to do with “men”.
I was raised a Catholic, a “good” Catholic – baptized, communioned, confirmed, confessed. I slowly decided I didn’t like the organized part of organized religion, so I stopped going to Church, stopped participating in the rituals. Started to think of myself as more of a Christian, and then gradually slipped towards agnostic. And then I decided I didn’t like the religious part of organized religion either, and I had a “Spiritual De-Awakening”. I describe the moment when I turned, unequivocally atheist, in my post “On 9/11, Atheism, Buttons and Bowling for Jesus”.
But if an Atheist describes what he or she is NOT, I’m here now to tell you what I am. And why, in the scheme of things, my spirituality depends on what I think about men.
It was a year or so after I was feeling comfortable with my new, self-proclaimed label of “Atheist”, when a colleague of mine called me over to her computer and whispered conspiratorially “Here, take this test. It’s great – it’s called The Belief-O-Matic quiz.”
“Right” I answered. I’m pretty sure my eyes rolled. “No really,” she said convincingly. “It tells you what religion you would be if you didn’t know what religion you were. Don’t you want to know?”
So I took it. And was told I was not an atheist but actually a “secular humanist”—the belief that it is “the connective goodness of mankind that moves the world forward.” And that I had a “naturalistic worldview and a positive ethical outlook.”
I felt like I had died and gone to heaven. (Just kidding, that was an atheist joke.) But truly—“secular humanist”—if there is anyone that believes that it’s the “connective goodness of mankind that moves the world forward,” that would be me. I felt as if I had been holding my breath for years and could finally let it out. YES. That is what I believed.
To me—The Good Men Project—that’s part of why it feel so much like home. Like such a part of me. Because I’ve come to see that it’s part of my “system of beliefs”. What are we forming if not connection points that believe in the goodness of mankind? A positive ethical outlook? Yeah, that, too.
I’ve mentioned before that for much of my life, I’ve been quite scared of men. My relationships with men didn’t get off to such a great start, and the systematic portrayal of men by the media didn’t help matters. At all. Men were scary because they were portrayed as villains. It’s hard to trust any individual man if you’re always wondering when the dark side is going to show up.
And so, for a secular humanist to not believe that one-half the population is “good”—it doesn’t work. To not be able to connect with half the people in the world spiritually—that’s a problem. It’s kind of like being half-alive.
But learning to believe in men as good—all men, as good first—that was a spiritual awakening of the very best kind.
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