Has Awkwardness in Love Lost its Charm?

Being in love is one of the most soothing things we all have ever experienced.

Everything is new and exciting. That first eye contact, first talk, first time holding hands, the first kiss, and this list of firsts goes on.

The roller coaster of emotions is just crazy wild. Mainly, we feel that we’re on cloud 9; now I am the king, and I’ve got everything that I want in my life, taking the second spot. Third is I want to talk to her/him constantly and never stop. And I think everyone must experience this phase of life at least once in their life. No bullcrap, just pure love.

Out of all the emotions that I’ve experienced the most dominant one would be the awkwardness. If you’re in love then you’ve to be clumsy and awkward.

What a dash of cinnamon or cardamom does to coffee is exactly what the awkwardness does to love. It adds a nice zing to it and takes the flavor to a whole other level.

I’ll tell you a story about my first love.

The first time I fell in love and went into a relationship was when I was in 9th class. We dated for 2 years (9th and 10th) but after that we broke up.

I still remember it was a Saturday, and we were in our PT (Physical Training) uniforms, as Saturday was a half day, and mostly we used to be on the playground except the first and last period. It was a month of November, and the cold was just beyond gorgeous, i.e., not too harsh but not too soft either.

It was 11:00 A.M. The school was over, but I had to go to my class teacher for some doubt clearing, and my girlfriend, with my other friends, was waiting outside the staff room. After a while my friends left as their parents came to pick them up (phewwww, thank god). If it weren’t for those parents, I wouldn’t have been telling this story now, so thanks to them.

After the doubt-clearing, my girlfriend and I left for some pet pooja (eating). There was a stall named Bholenath Sweets and Farsan (savoury snacks) just beside our school, and I loved their samosa paav, especially the chutney. It was our ritual that every Saturday after school we used to have samosa paav there. So as usual we went and plugged into Nirvana.

Pet pooja is done now; after that, I had to drop her. Again ritual. She used to stay about 10 minutes walking from our school, and my bus stop was just a minute from her building. Since now we were only two, it was a bit awkward but romantically awkward. We both were blushing more and talking less. I guess we both were used to being with friends around us, so this was new to us, and so were the feelings.

About 200m from her house, I grabbed her hand in mine. I wanted to do that for a loooong time, but since we were with friends, we couldn’t, but on that day, such wasn’t the case. I had the opportunity and took it.

To be honest, it was one of the most memorable moments of my life. Her soft hands just hugging my hands tightly. Fingers tangled into each other, and I’m softly grazing her hand with mine. For 2 minutes while we were holding hands, we didn’t look at each other, let alone talk. We were talking with our hands, it seems. And as we stood in front of her building gate, we said bye to each other and left. Nothing else just byee and gone.

It was so awkward, but it was equally romantic.

But on Monday, as soon as I saw her, I went straight to her and asked, How did you feel? Are you okay? She replied with a tinge of blush on her face that she was absolutely fine and the experience was unparalleled. By the way, I must tell you that there were phones at that time but they weren’t allowed in schools. So from Saturday till Monday I was dying to ask her this, and after her reply, I was literally on cloud 9, blushing (hehehehehe).

My point in writing this blog was, as we’re evolving, has awkwardness lost its charm?

I think it has. The advent of social media and dating apps changed the language of love and spoiled the sanctity of this word and the pure feelings behind it. Holding hands has become so casual now that the awkwardness in it is totally gone. I may be wrong, but as far as I’ve experienced and seen this, I couldn’t be wrong.

In this world where casual dating, situationships, and hookups are as normal as buying an ice cream, I really want that awkwardness back. It might still be here, and I am not able to find it, but still without that awkwardness and clumsiness, love is not complete.

I am telling you if you’re in love or finding love, please search for that awkwardness. From stammering during a confession to misinterpreting signals, these moments add authenticity and humor to relationships.

Let me know in the comments about your opinion and your awkward romantic story.

Cheers to awkwardness in love!!🥂❤️

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