He Brought Flowers. I Was Angry.

One day, my husband came home with flowers. He had stopped somewhere on his way home to buy them. There was nothing wrong with the bouquet. It was beautiful. It smelled good. It was still a small, visible gesture of affection.

But I was angry. Very much so.

Around that time, I spent every afternoon waiting desperately for him to come home. Can you come home soon? When are you coming? Are you late again today? I did not ask those questions because I wanted to control him. I asked because every minute truly felt urgent to me.

Our children were very young then. One of them was still a baby. I was not living the soft, romantic version of motherhood. I was sleep-deprived. I needed a shower without listening for a baby crying. I needed a chance to eat while the food was still warm. I needed time to sit alone in a room with the door closed. I was, quite literally, on the verge of falling apart.

Maybe it had taken thirty minutes. Maybe less. He had bought me flowers. But what I needed was the very time he had spent buying them.

There is an old story about a lion and a cow. The cow loves the lion, so she brings him grass. The lion loves the cow, so he brings her meat. Both of them are giving what they know as love. Both of them are trying. And neither of them receives what they need.

We often say love fails to reach the other person because of a failure of translation. But is that really all it is?

When we love, we often choose the form of love that is easier for us to give, rather than the one the other person actually needs. Buying flowers was a relatively easy and familiar way for him to show love. Coming home thirty minutes earlier and sharing the weight of childcare would have been a much more tiring, inconvenient, and practical form of love.

And this is not only true of romantic love. A parent may have wanted a small, ordinary phone call — “What did you eat today?” — more than money sent to their account. A child may have wanted a parent to sit on the floor and play pretend with them more than a newly bought toy.

But calling a parent and listening to those small, ordinary stories is honestly tiring. It asks for emotional energy. It asks for time. Sending money is easier. Buying a toy for a child is similar. A toy can be bought. The effort ends there. But playing pretend means lowering your body to the floor. It means enduring boredom. It means entering the child’s world. And that is much harder.

We often choose the form of love that asks the least of us, and hope it will be received as enough. Not because we do not love. Because we are human.

If someone asked me whether that deserves blame, I do not know how to answer. Perhaps that question comes too close to asking how perfect we expect love to be.

Of course, I was no exception. So that day, I got angry at my husband. He took it without saying much.

A few hours later, when I came back out to the living room, the flowers were arranged beautifully in a vase. My husband was watching TV. I looked at the flowers and imagined him choosing them, thinking they would make me happy.

Then I said, almost to myself, or maybe to him, as if the words were only passing through the room:

“At least they smell nice.”

Written by Hana
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