“Really?” I said, looking toward the water bottle at the Target cash register that my husband was about to purchase en route to Burning Man. “Like we need more water bottles? Don’t we have a dozen of them in our cupboards?”
“Mine leaks,” he said. “You know how it goes in the desert. We can’t mess around. I’m not going to go with a faulty water bottle. I remember when you got dehydrated in the desert, and it wasn’t pretty.”
“But it’s plastic,” I yelled, aware of the cashier warily eyeing us. “Think about the toxic island of plastic that is now the size of Texas and killing marine life,” I said.
He glared at me. “We are about to have a life-changing experience,” he shot back, “and this is what you want to focus on right now?”
“But we are not supposed to purchase corporate shit,” I continued, unable to stop myself. “The point of this whole event is to reduce consumerism.”
We went on like this, holding up the line at the checkout for a few more minutes before I gave in with a huff. This was a fight my husband and I had fifteen years ago, when we were still married. Burning Man, the festival that promotes self-expression, building temporary community, and anti-consumerism, required that we bring all of our food, shelter, and water. In the Black Rock desert, the elements were rough—dust and rain storms and extreme heat and cold. People pack for fun but also to survive.
Rather than trying to understand his point of view (which I can now see), I was so upset and overtaken by anxiety and my need to be right that I started an argument. Fights like these are one of the reasons our marriage ended a decade ago. And while the fights sometimes seemed to be about trivial matters, looking beyond the content reveals an immaturity in our communication that caused our relationship to break down.
You wouldn’t think a fight about a water bottle would have anything to do with our sex life. However, a couple’s sex life will not be intimate or exciting if they cannot share anxieties and desires in a way that creates closeness and understanding. There is no separating sex from the rest of a relationship, as hard as we try. If our communication does not bring us closer, it tears us apart. And as emotional connection diminishes, intimacy and sex usually do too.
My ex and I are not the only ones who fight over seemingly trivial things. The couples and singles I work with as a relationship coach bring similar everyday upsets and frustrations to our sessions. They do not always recognize that these surface conflicts are symptoms of deeper layers of hurt and fear. The deeper layers are more challenging to be honest about, both with others and ourselves.
Our fight was never about the water bottle.
My deeper layers included fears about values, money, and feeling misunderstood. I’m not the only one with these fears. It is common for people to focus on surface issues without seeing the deeper layers. Focusing on the surface layers means we are simultaneously hiding or avoiding our deeper pain. Both ways create disconnection, break trust, and can kill our sex lives.
Many of my clients have attempted to create intimacy and passion through methods akin to pruning flowers. Rather than focusing on trimming or trying to make flowers look beautiful—focusing on the surface aspects of life—we have to recognize that the soil is often missing necessary nutrients for the buds to grow—learning to be more honest and intimate in mature ways. Through coaching my clients, it became apparent that the soil—the foundation of relationships—needs to be healthier and stronger.
This means we need more than date nights and lingerie to keep passion alive and to bring it back when it fades. Better sex is not about new positions or toys. Although they can add fun and variety, they are not a replacement for honest connection. The fact that sex relies on much more than physicality is the missing link for many couples. We need to make fundamental shifts in our communication to keep relationships alive and exciting.
This book will give you the foundation for communication that creates more intimacy and makes sex more satisfying. This book is a guide for those who want to keep connection and passion alive in their relationships and for those who find romantic relationships more challenging than they imagined. It provides a path to the kind of intimacy people tell me they long for. In this book, I share the doorway I found back to connection and passion, which I do not see many people finding or opening. The doorway is a mature kind of honesty, and it is one of the most important nutrients in the soil needed for a couple to thrive. This book (Honest Sex) also explores aspects of sex that go beyond our limited cultural framework. This is the book I wish I was handed decades ago.
We Have Not Matured Enough to Sustain Satisfying Relationships
Fifteen years after the water bottle argument, and ten years after our divorce, I was on a road trip with my ex and our kid. At the time, I was working on this book and reflecting on the lessons of the past decade. I told him I was sorry for the argument about the water bottle. I always tell my clients it is never too late to apologize or debrief a painful situation! I also apologized for all the times I was not mature enough to hear or validate his perspectives. He accepted my apology and we both expressed gratitude for how far we have come since we were married.
Mentioning our recent road trip to friends or acquaintances, I was often met with surprised responses like, “You’re doing what with your ex-husband?” When he and I chose to move to a new state together, people were blown away. The fact that we respect each other and get along well enough to make major life changes together is a testament to the perspectives and tools shared in this book. We use them.
Although my marriage ended, I do not see this, or any couple’s relationship ending, as a failure. Relationships can change form in healthy and positive ways, and at times, they come to a completion. Some people wonder if we are outgrowing marriage as a culture, but there is more to the relationship story than meets the eye. The problem I regularly see, and experienced in my marriage, is not that we have outgrown marriage or long-term relationships, but that we have actually not grown or matured enough to create the emotionally connected, sexually satisfying relationships we long for.
This book focuses on conscious communication and relating with examples of how these evolve into relationships that become more connected and passionate over time. The default romantic relationship stays on a surface level. Couples are not likely to consistently inquire into the deeper honesty of their partner’s hearts and dreams. They shut down, rather than learn and grow through conflict. It takes courage and commitment to have a relationship with real connection and an intimate and exciting sex life, but the payoff is big!
Long-term relationships are struggling more and more these days. Marriage, for example, was in trouble long before I tried it fifteen years ago. Between 1960 and 1980, the divorce rate more than doubled—from 9.2 divorces per one thousand married women to 22.6 divorces per one thousand married women. The divorce rate hovers around 50 percent for first marriages and even higher for second and third ones.
The trend I see with clients, especially after a couple years of pandemic living, does not look good for marriage. Furthermore, those in long-term, unmarried relationships are also struggling to retain a hold on passion and commitment. (Wilcox, 2009)
Couples are yearning to feel more bonded, supported, and attracted to each other. Over the past twenty years of coach- ing and facilitating workshops for thousands in the realms of communication and authenticity, it has become clear to me that turning the tide on relationships calls for a shift in relational dynamics.
We Can Learn to Love Better
This book was motivated by the fact that I do not want anyone to be humbled by a divorce or a breakup as I was. I thought I had relationships figured out! Looking back, I see that when I got married at age thirty, even after completing a master’s in psychology, a decade of therapy, coaching, spiritual practice, yoga, tantric exploration, and self-growth workshops, I was still like a kindergartener who had not yet learned what it takes to keep love alive.
It has taken an incredible amount of additional humility and work on myself to unwind the relationship patterns I learned from a young age that broke love and connection, rather than supported it. My clients are courageously doing this too. They use the tools covered here to be honest and stay true to themselves, while also respecting and communicating about others’ needs. And even more than the wedding invites, housewarmings, and baby announcements I receive, what I love hearing from my clients is how they come to love and respect themselves.
I believe relationships can evolve, even when relational dynamics feel overwhelming or stuck. For this to happen, we need to learn a more mature and honest way of communicating. Mature honesty has the power to transform bickering, griping, nagging, irritation, and hurt into deep emotional connection and passionate sexual connection. It allows couples to get through fights about laundry and garbage, and even money and sex, to feel real and sustained closeness.
My hope is that my experiences will allow readers to identify pitfalls, rather than stumble into them. I hope to mitigate some of the frustration that occurs in relationships by reveal- ing both my own and my clients’ stories of vulnerability and learning to love better (names and personal details have been changed to respect clients’ privacy). Learning these perspectives and tools could save your current and future relationships. They create the basis for honest relationships in which there is no need to hide who you really are and there is nothing you need to prove or live up to. You get to be you, wholly and honestly.
A Note About Identity
I have explored and worked with people in a wide range of relationship models and do not believe that one relation- ship model fits all. I have witnessed relief when people find a relationship model that fits, rather than try to cover up dishonesty or inhabit a false self. Whether you are casually dating, in a traditional marriage, or in a throuple—you’ll know what this is if it applies to you—you will find inspiration and tools to further your relationship goals.
As a cis-gendered, white woman who is mainly attracted to men, I know this book is biased by my perspective. I have found the principles in this book apply regardless of gender or biology, but most of my thousands of clients, while they come from many cultures around the world, have been in heterosexual relationships.
I also acknowledge that, even as a single mother and entrepreneur who has not always felt financially stable, I had the privilege of a financially secure, middle-class upbringing that set me up for a middle-class lifestyle as an adult. This has afforded me time and financial resources to explore relational dynamics. However, I do believe anyone can benefit from adopting a few of the honesty practices in this book, no matter how much time or money they have.
A Guide to the Reader Experience
This book is not designed to lean heavily into theory. My intent was to simplify concepts in a way that makes them actionable.
Part 1 of this book focuses on understanding what honesty is. It is much more complex than discerning whether someone is lying or telling the truth. Moving beyond this binary is a big leap in consciousness and becomes necessary to create relationships that grow and heal us.
Part 2 focuses on understanding what sex is. Sex is more expansive than I, or most of my clients, ever learned. Broad- ening our understanding opens up pathways of connection and passion that cannot exist otherwise.
Part 3 gives perspectives and tools that lead to stronger con- nection and intimacy, and thus more passion. You can use them immediately to strengthen your relationships.
You might be tempted to skip to the chapters on sex and orgasm, but understanding honesty is important, and most of us appreciate a little foreplay. Again, the foundation of better sex is not physical; it is emotional and relational. Part 1 lays the groundwork to improve not only your connections but your sex life as well.
Thousands of clients have expressed gratitude for the tools I share here that have allowed them to move beyond frustration and isolation to feel more energized, connected, and intimate in their relationships. I hope this book opens up new ways for you to love and be loved.
With love and honesty,
Shana
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