The Gift of Maturity

It’s terrifying to wake up, after years of intense work on oneself, of searching, self-knowledge, and the penny dropping…

It’s terrifying for the victim inside, cornered, fearful, and who often pretends to be strong to survive, to discover that sadness is just an addictive behavior…

That despite all the therapies, all the self-knowledge generated in search of answers, all the medications, all the crying and gnashing of teeth, this sadness of thousands of experiences has to be faced lucidly, consciously as now.

It’s terrifying to realize that the answer was always there and that only with maturity would it be accepted.

It’s terrifying to understand that this behavior will never go away if there isn’t a mental change, a change of focus, of tuning. That it will only leave when there is a definitive decision: — Whenever you come to haunt me I decide to focus on the good side, the positive side and get out of the tune of pain and loneliness, finding ways to no longer feed you.

Understanding that we feed is a beautiful step in the process of softening, because if we understand that we feed it is time to stop feeding.

And when we change our attitude towards a vicious behavior, it loses strength and ceases to be the eternal monster that has always frightened us.

It’s scary to understand that we feed, it’s scary, but it’s a gift to have the maturity to understand that it’s only there because it finds an opening in us… And that it will only go away when we take a definitive position, tirelessly self-correcting what has become a sick habit.

And now begins the wonderful process of self-correcting, stopping feeding the helpless victim who unconsciously believes that deserves to go through this pain and focusing on the determined personality, who is tired of this and wants to experience the wonders of feeling differently.

Think openly about everything you feel, because every emotional behavior is an internal command that says: I want to be extremely poor, I want to feel anger, I want to feel sadness, I want to feel pain, I want to feel loneliness…

If you’re facing something like this and it never goes away, it’s time to accept that it’s you who feeds it and that it’s time to decide to change the mental command to what you really want to feel.

Choose which vibe you want to enjoy your life in, at this moment, it’s all a matter of deciding what you want:

To live loneliness and pain, whatever it may be, or to be going through this, but without feeding the part that hurts you, focusing on the warrior side and that one day will no longer need this tuning?

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