To Watch the World Spin Without Him: Man’s Greatest Sin

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“Forgive me, great immortal power, for I have sinned.

I’ve given in to the worst of the unforgettable evils.

Not murder, nor adultery, nor wrath or gluttony.

Not theft or falsity, nor deception or vanity.

I’ve done what most men shouldn’t, what most wouldn’t dare.

I’ve found myself guilty and am not sure if I am able to bring myself back from it.

I’ve committed the greatest of all crimes…the crime of idleness.

The crime of complacency, the sin of self-induced dormancy, of immobilizing fear….

The crime of not living.

I’ve abandoned vitality, usefulness, and cooperation.

The devil himself has found me, reached into me, knotted my soul, and dried out my heart.”

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What is the worst a man can do?

What puts him apart from other men, from love, from true glory of what we seek to become?

To do nothing.

For it is this, that through my sin and through my self-deception I have found myself wanting. I have spiraled blindly, through the depths of internal hell, numb to it’s fire and it’s darkness.

Blindfolded by my own hand, I have descended toward Lucifer’s chambers.

My own wings bound, I have cascaded toward the screaming pits of the damned.

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The worst a man can be, isn’t to not be himself, but to avoid being himself, a man, at all.

Man’s greatest sin is to watch the world spin without him.

To let the gravity of all that exists to press on him without the strength to press back against it, to make it submit to his will and influence, while he has the vitality, the power, and prowess to move against it.

Who we are, is not something to be afraid of, but to fear not being.

And with or without divinity, the “God” in us (or outside of us), suffers as it watches us do nothing, say nothing, be nothing.

It is the greatest of all sins, the creator of all darknesses, to be given this body, this character, this potentiality, and let it decay within us.

We have to find a way to not be nothing.

We have to find faith in who we are, believe in our thoughts and intuitions, and leave behind the self-destructive heretics that lie inside of us. Those voices that claim to be us, formed by our susceptibility to give in to the lies that make us pause too long, think too destructively, and choose to be less instead of being more.

We cannot give in to such a sin.

The sin of lifelessness, is to live in hell as conscious humans, before heaven or hell itself takes us.

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Truth and Love, Reader.

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This post was previously published on medium.com.

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