Tears welling in azure eyes
you recited your amorous soliloquy
I bathed in the water of your emotion
permitted myself to rest
to be soothed
At long last
be content
You proclaimed my imperfections endearing
My scars — badges of honor
You aspired to be my person
To travel — to battle — alongside
But when the veil of infatuation lifted
and love’s bounty could truly be discovered
You cowered — deserted
too feeble to exert the effort
Starstruck by serendipity
I had envisioned the beauty in our future
Surmounting struggles
a path to strengthen our union
Did you not trust our relationship to withstand?
Or did you simply become apathetic?
At what point did admiration fall to disregard?
I showered you with tokens of affection
My first
now my last
poetic declaration
You sang my praises
Lulled me with sweet nothings
And I
the enchanted fool
was enthralled by your music
Captivated by your siren’s song
I lowered my shields
Allowed you to see the wounds
residing in my soul’s abyss
immersed for a decade
concealed from view
by warrior’s armor
When did our treasure begin to tarnish?
Why carelessly lay waste my self-respect?
Or are you oblivious to your actions’ aftermath?
Masquerading as my beloved
you celebrated with my family
Camouflaging your discontent
with flattery and lies
Buoyed by false affirmation
I sailed hope’s waters
Swept up on a promise
A doomed flight of fancy
Was I always your dirty little secret?
You couldn’t admit
even to yourself?
Once again battered and broken
submerged by my own tears
The suffocating weight plummets me
shipwrecked
into the deep
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