Yea, yea I know. What a crock of shit right?
It was actually a “medium” that I spoke to. I titled this article in order to not name it “medium” on the website medium. I thought it would be annoying. However, here I am writing the word “medium” for the fourth time in my first few sentences. So there goes that.
The psychic said some things that were off the mark, and some others that were spot on. My grandmother “came through”, or whatever they say, and I was floored at some of the family secrets that this woman was saying. It surely seemed like only my loved ones would know these things.
A great uncle of mine died as an infant (secret ruined) and she called it. It was definitely bizarre.
Am I 100% a believer now? Not really.
Did I get something out of it? Definitely.
The one thing that really stood out to me was about my future. I’ve been off and on writing for a long time. I’ve been writing on Medium for a few months before meeting with the psychic. She said that my grandfather would fully support me in my writing and that writing is my way of helping people. Also, she said that all of the shitty things I have been through were done by design. The design is for me to go out and help people who also struggle with mental illness.
So I got that going for me. lol.
With that, she said that it will someday be a career for me. This isn’t exactly groundbreaking stuff here, but I loved to hear it.
What this did for me, is pretty incredible. It gave me confidence. I am going to dive head first into writing and eventually speaking (I want to become a motivational speaker). Without seeing this perhaps medium or perhaps bullshit-artist, I wouldn’t have done so.
She gave me this idea that it is, “written in the stars” for me to pursue this. The uncertainty of leaping into a new path is so scary and she put my mind at ease.
At the end of the day, there is no telling if this is a real phenomenon or not, but it made an impact. I feel like a weight has been lifted and that is enough for me. This is just the confidence boost that I needed in order to kickstart the life that I truly want to live.
I’ve always been scared into conforming with the “conventional” ways of making a living. This conformity led me to all sorts of unhappiness and an eventual suicide attempt. After the attempt, what did I do? I went right back into conforming into whatever the people around me “wanted” me to do.
That is no way to live! Why do I feel the need to please others when it is literally my life? I need to stop with this “open hand syndrome” and grab hold of my life. (You like that phrase? Just made it up). This is the end of my people pleasing days. Life is way too short and hell, I’m already on my second shot at it.
I lured you in with the title, and then vented relentlessly. But guess what? I don’t care, because this is my life. I can vent when I want to vent and others will have to deal with it or just get the fuck out.
At the end of the day, there is no rule book as to how to live your life. There is nothing stopping us from being what we want to be, and making the most out of this life that we are given.
From this point forward, I am going to milk this life for every last drop! Do I regret saying that I’m going to “milk” life? Yes. Enough to backspace over it? Hell no.
I guess the point to this rant is this. You don’t need a medium. You don’t need someone to tell you what to do. Just do it. Make like Nike and do the damn thing. Confidence can come from within.
I’m grateful that I went to the psychic and even more grateful for the mindset that followed. I’m also a little disappointed that it took an outside source to give me the confidence to pursue what I really want to pursue.
I’m going to tell my story, and really go for it. Stay tuned for a whole slew of motivation from me. I’m about to go on a roll and motivate the living shit out of you.
Remember that you don’t need a medium or anyone to tell you to go after what you want. This is your life and your rules. Make the most of it.
Thanks for reading and get ready, because this isn’t the last you’ll hear from me!
This post was previously published on Medium.com.
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