Is this what I am? Is this what I’m supposed to do? Why me? Why not me? These are the questions I ask You, as I continue to receive the same response. Trust all is in Divine order. This is a struggle as I break once and for all the past conditioning that no longer serves me.
Wonderful support from the spiritual world and the real world. What should I write? God let’s go, take over. I’m merely an instrument that is now ready to serve in the way I have been created. I’ve been patient haven’t I? I know there is much more to learn but can your throw me a bone, and give me some direction. Book, podcast, blog you told me to do and that’s what I’ve been doing. I’ve given myself to you and here I am still questioning the process.
I write to You like I have written to you many times before and I’m prepared now to bring our relationship to the world. I’m no longer a boy and I AM ready. This has been our (my interpretation) 30 year game plan. Books no longer serve me, no one can bring me closer to you but ME. There isn’t a man or woman who walks the planet right now that can tell me, show me or teach me how You operate. I’m getting confident now putting this out there, should I delete? No! I’m done with all this scared bullshit, You want to humble me more, then go ahead if that is the best way for me to serve the Plan. Not my plan, Your Plan.
I need to let the Warrior in me run God, as I’m starting to slowly lose my patience. What more do you want from me? Am I not ready to speak the words you plant in me daily? Is it me? Am I scared to share all I know? Yes, I Am. What will they think?
Ok, I feel a little better as I let this out. This is an example of how I communicate to God through writing. Normally this would be buried in one of my journals. However, this is my new journal and was told from my boss to do a blog and share how we communicate. Writing is another form of prayer and is a powerful tool in developing a relationship with God.
This article originally appeared on Chris Forte’s Blog
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