Craig Playstead says that despite what you think, divorce is astronomically expensive, will wreck your family, and puts you through hell.
“The greater the love, the greater the tragedy when it’s over.” – Nicolas Sparks
After twenty-five years of friendship, twelve years of marriage, three kids, two dogs, one cat and three houses, I got divorced last year. Divorce doesn’t feel like you think it would, and it’s not at all like people tell you. It was the reason I couldn’t write, the reason I had a hard time going to work and the reason I questioned everything about life.
While I’ve made peace with it in my own way, it’s something that you should avoid at all costs. The grass is not always greener. Your kids will suffer no matter how well you think you’ve worked it out, your friends will suffer and your family will suffer. Most of all, you will suffer in ways you never thought – even if you’re the one pushing for it. It really is a tragedy on par with a death in the family.
Here are the things people fail to tell you about divorce:
There are no amicable divorces. If anyone says they had an amicable divorce, they’re lying. It’s the most personal thing a person can ever go through and you will feel attacked, sad and incredibly insecure through most of it.
You’ll miss between 50-75% of your kid’s lives. At best, as a man you’ll get 50/50 (unless your wife smokes crack and juggles chain saws while cooking dinner). That means you’re going to miss 50% of the rest of your kid’s childhood, and that’s the best case scenario. I just missed a trip that my kids took to Disneyland last month. I couldn’t find my heart for a week. It’s always in the last place you look.
You will lose control of your kids. In its most basic explanation, when you divorce the state basically says that you can’t be trusted to know what’s best for your kids anymore, so they will get involved—forever. They need to know where those kids are at all times until they’re eighteen. That monitoring has different levels, but you’re no longer in charge. If the state were Adam Carolla it would say: “you fucked up your family so we can’t trust that you won’t fuck up your kids too. We’re going to keep an eye on things for the next decade or so.”
Do not, under any circumstances get lawyers involved. There is nothing scarier than the family court system. And if you hire a lawyer, you dramatically raise the chance that you’ll find yourself there at one time or another. It is hell. You’d have a better chance getting the outcome you’d like by getting drunk and playing Russian roulette. You just never know.
If you don’t believe me, read this piece on divorce in the state of Washington. It will not only scare you, you won’t sleep tonight. However, sometimes you don’t have a choice and need the help of a lawyer.
Ask yourself if you’re ready to be replaced. You will be replaced by some guy your spouse chooses and he will enter your kid’s world. Even if you’re not truly replaced, you’ll sure feel like you are. Wait until he takes your boys fishing or buys them something you can’t afford because of what the divorce costs you. The ghost of William Wallace will fill your gut and it will take everything you have in you not to storm the castle.
You will be financially ruined. Most guys I know either claimed bankruptcy or got damn close to it. No one tells you this, but it’s true. You know those old guys greeting people at Walmart in their 70′s? They got divorced in their 40′s (actually I made that up, but it could be true). It’s a lot like remodeling your house. Whatever you think it will cost you, double it – then double it again. Oh, and it will take twice as long. Most people say it takes about three years to bounce back.
You may not miss her, but you will miss your family. And it will be the things you don’t expect: watching TV on the couch, fighting with the kids in the car, dinners that go horribly wrong and days where nothing ever happens. Instead of that, you’ll be trying to reinvent your life. Most likely in an apartment … with no pool.
You’ll get caught up in the swirl. Lawyers get a bad rap, and in some cases it’s justified. However, you hire them to protect you … from your spouse. Plain and simple. When you start listening to them, your family, your friends and everyone else you get all fired up and lose sight of what needs to happen: your kids need to be taken care of.
Don’t “burn down the house.” If you really think divorce is the only answer, don’t lie, cheat or ruin your spouse. This will destroy any trust between you and her during the divorce. Divorce proceedings that lack trust will ruin your life. It will cost tens of thousands of dollars (or hundreds of thousands); you’ll lawyer up and find yourself in court. Be honest, come clean, give and see it from their side and you might make it without sinking the ship.
The last thing I’ll mention is that I truly believe couples don’t work hard enough at marriage. The highs are really high and the lows are extremely low, but most will come out the other side if they stick it out and put their family first. One thing that’s easy to forget is that your marriage should always come before your kids, not after.
And what is true love? It’s loving someone when they least deserve it. That’s how you push through.
Previously published at “Shake Your Foundation” blog.
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