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100 Words on Love, by Damon Young
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There’s one part about being in love that people currently there don’t really share. Admittedly, this seems practical. I imagine they want others to eventually be there too, so they volunteer personal examples of the want, weightlessness, and fulfillment associated with it to make others eager to join their club.
I’m currently experiencing this. And it is fucking great.
I’m also scared to death of losing her—to cancer, to car accidents, to E coli, to mutant land sharks—and I’m annoyed no one warned me that an increasingly irrational fear of an inevitable occurrence would come with this gotdamn fucking package.
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Damon, I so feel you on this, and it doesn’t get much better.
I still freak out when my husband is late back from mountain biking or surfing (mountain lions, sharks) or work (I have to actively push away images of his truck going into a canyon).
Then you add these little creatures into your life (maybe, someday, never know) who embody and eclipse that love you have with your partner and life becomes exponentially more terrifying. But it also becomes exponentially better, so…
I guess it’s worth it.
Aye, there’s a few things they don’t tell you, but that fear – oh boy. I used to stride through life and relationships, doing what I did and doing it well. Or so I thought. The women would come, the women would go. C’est la vie. But here’s the kicker. I had a kid, a little boy, to a beautiful mother. And fuck me if that little bloke didn’t completely ransack all the little pigeonholes I had all my ideas of love stored in. This little walnut of a thing, who just invaded and destroyed all the walls and barriers,… Read more »
this fear has had me thinking for a while now, that i dont believe i can ever produce offspring. i feel an overwhelming inability to create and sustain a world that i would want a child to experience. i may just stick to working as hard as i can to produce this effect for my nephew and nieces and leave that heartbreak to my siblings-turned-parents.