Chris Forte shares his experience with responding in a line of meditation and sincerity, and shows us how we can follow suit.
In all my decision making process I try with the utmost awareness to choose love over fear. My intent is to do that 100% of the time but that’s not always the case. I saw this in front of Veg Fest and it sparked me to write this blog post because of a decision I made out of my own fear.
A very dear friend of mine emailed me about my last blog post. This person is a very gifted author of three books, teacher and therapist in the holistic space. We haven’t talked in quite awhile so I was a little surprised by the email.
This person knows I’m writing a book, have a podcast and that I’m very committed to sharing my story with the world. This person shared all the details of their financials and how they have multiple streams of income so they can do what they do. My first thoughts when I read this “why are you sending me this?”. I was a little taken back. This person has no idea what my last 18 months have been like. I’ve been through hell and back. So my first gut reaction was to respond “Thanks for thinking of me”. That would have been a love over fear decision right there. Could have sent that, let it go and be done.
Instead, I let that email eat away at me and I waited almost 24 hours to respond. Right before my fingers hit the keyboard, I went into a meditation took some deep breaths and then let it fly. Oh boy was my response way out of line and 100% fear based. This person was so loving, generous and open with the details of her life and I snapped back saying shit like “that is your life experience not mine”, “why do you feel like you need to share it?”. Wow! It’s decisions like this whereby I’m still working on loving myself and not letting fear take over.
I hope and I’m very certain that this person will understand and accept my apology. Writing is so important to me. It helps me communicate feelings that I can share whereby sometimes its difficult in a conversation. Writing in my journal for 17 years saved my life, kept me sane in a world I had trouble living in.
That has changed. What has been rediscovered for myself is, we are the world, we are the purpose, we are love. It’s all in inside Body, Mind and Spirit and not on the outside. I’ve been living a fear based life. It’s no way to live, so I will keep chugging, I will follow my heart, I will speak my truth and I will win this battle love over fear. Why? Because I’m a spiritual warrior. A humble one.
This article originally appeared on Chris Forte’s Blog
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