Changing My Mind to Win in Notes of Loving
“Awareness is all about restoring your freedom to choose what you want instead of what your past imposes on you.” Deepak Chopra
I want to listen without projecting my story and answers onto the lives of others and I want to be more present to communicate with words, eyes, ears and my living acts of compassion. I want to shift from being independent and move willingly into interdependence to be able to be united within a tribe. I want to listen with my heart and not with the editor of my mind. I want to do more than survive. I want to thrive in the circle of my tribe.
I want to turn my sexual energy from being reflections of anger to be reflections of intimacy. I want to just control the fire of my internal rage.
I want to learn to listen more than I speak. I want to honor the sacredness of my breathing and the breath that flows through my nostrils. I want to respect the breath and the words that come from your lips. I want to know when I speak I am creating and not destroying. I want to plant seeds of hope and possibilities. I want people to remember me for my loving hand and not my hand landing on their face. I want to learn the compassion of staying silent, the same letters that spell the word, listen.
I want my children to remember my love and support when they become adults and they begin to understand the love of my struggling to keep them loved and safe. I want my children to teach their children sweet notes of loving. I want my children to call me to their home and respect my dignity. I want to always be respectful of the decisions they make, even when we disagree.
I want my personal door always open like a portal open for the sun come and lay at the foot of my door frame. I want to be present when you crawl through an open window. I want to practice telling you the truth and hope I never lie. In the event I do, I hope I am man enough to tell you.
I want to remember I am not perfect, and neither are you. I don’t want you to be the prisoner of my past.
I want to win with the tools of love. I don’t want to declare war on your heart. I want to be still, in the midst of my anger. I want my words to know the strength of their power.
I want to be a man of love. I want to be a man of solution. I want to respect the divine feminine in all women and men. I want to respect the divine feminine within myself. I want to respect the power of my divine masculine. I want to respect the balance of their union.
I want to sleep with you in respect, as well as I sleep respectfully with myself. I want you to know I hold no keys to lock your soul up with a controlling key. I want you to know I am responsible for the dark side of me and I will not share it as a gift of love. I want you to know it is my work I must do, for you and for me.
I want to be the partner you can depend on because I can depend on me.
I want to be a modern man with a loving hand and a loving heart. I want to be a man of solution and not a man of confusion. If I am, I will step back and begin again. I want to be a man who forgives and forgets the pain given. I want to remember the reasons to be loving.
I want to be a modern man who sings notes of loving in every life song I sing. As a modern man I want to leave the room in better shape than it was before I came into the room.
I want to leave echoes of love in the chambers of the lungs and heart, so you can breathe and sing my love songs in the breath of the winds, long after I am gone. I am a Man of Love.
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