Jackie Summers responds to “Are Men Really Assholes or Do Their Wives Just Think They Are?”
“What did you do?”
Singularly, this is the question I am asked most frequently when I tell people I am divorced, as if possession of the Y chromosome automatically means the dissolution of my marriage was intrinsically and entirely my fault.
I respond with what is—in my mind—the primary reason I’m no longer married to that particular individual. “My wife was abusive, physically and emotionally. In four years of marriage, I was kicked, punched in the face, she’d fly into a rage and destroy my things.”
This is usually the part where the initial question is repeated: “Why, what did YOU do?”
Implication: her unconscionable behavior must have been predicated by some even more loathsome act, perpetrated by me. In other words: clearly you deserved to be punished, it’s your fault, what provoked her to such uncontrollable anger?
I am trying to imagine the scenario where a wife describes her husband kicking her and punching her in the face, which is not immediately followed by righteous indignation, and a call to 911. None exist.
I go deeper. I explain that my ex-wife was massively insecure and venomously jealous. Once again, instead of assigning ownership of behavior to the individual responsible, my character is brought into question. “Well, what did you do to make her so insecure?”
Insecurity is a toxin of the soul, a condition that issues forth from the inside out, not the reverse. While you can do many things to—well, attempt to—reassure an insecure individual, ultimately these are doomed to failure, and may even backfire.
Example: About two years into my marriage, my best friend of 20 years moved to Atlanta. After moving beyond the initial despair, I decided that no matter where he was in the world, he was going to be my friend. I decided to visit twice a year.
I waited six months before I went to visit him the first time, and I wanted my wife to feel special before I left for a ten-day trip. The day before I was scheduled to leave, I got up, got dressed like I was going to work, drove her to the bus stop, and kissed her goodbye, like any other day. Then I turned around and drove home.
I cleaned the house from top to bottom. I went to the grocery store and got everything I needed to fix her favorite meal. And then I went to the florist and bought a pound of rose petals.
When she got home from work that day I greeted her at the door with her favorite robe and slippers. I undressed her at the door, as her favorite CD played, the scent of vanilla candles wafting through the room. Rose petals adorned the floor from the front door to the bathtub, where I had a bubble bath run. I helped her into the bathtub, bathed her from head to toe, shampooed and conditioned her hair, and then fork-fed her her favorite meal as she relaxed in the tub. I pre-warmed the towels, dried her off from head to toe, and allowed the path of rose-petals to guide her to the bedroom. After a full-body massage and several hours of love-making, I fell asleep.
When I awoke it must have been almost midnight. I got out of bed; I had a seven A.M. flight the next morning, and I hadn’t packed. Apparently I woke her as I arose, because the comment she made upon waking was:
“Well, I see we got ‘fucking the wife’ crossed off the list.”
♦◊♦
The idea that simply being the male in the relationship meant that I bore the brunt of the blame for the deterioration of my marriage was—(un)surprisingly—also implied by our marriage counselor. During one counseling session, the therapist asked us each to state one thing about the other that bothered us.
“He’s sarcastic,” she said.
“That’s true,” I responded, “but she hits.”
Before I could continue, the therapist turned to me and said, “You know, sometimes words can hit like a fist.”
Dumbfounded, I looked at her. “That’s true,” I said, “but sometimes fists can hit like a fist, and she hits.”
I left that session promising not to be sarcastic for an entire week. By the third day, my wife asked me why I was giving her the silent treatment.
“I’m not NOT talking to you,” I replied. “I am trying to live up to my promise not to be sarcastic, and I can’t even answer this question without breaking my promise.”
♦◊♦
My ex-wife grew up believing that any and all problems in a marriage ultimately stemmed from a husbands inability to be trustworthy. In her defense, she was reenacting behavior she’d observed as a child. Her dad had cheated on her mom—repeatedly—and when he did, she beat on him. In her mind, the second you truly trusted a man, he was going to betray you. I wasn’t an asshole per se; I was an asshole waiting to happen.
For what it’s worth, her parents are still married; they just hate each other.
Are some husbands assholes? Sure. Husbands are people; people are assholes. It’s not gender specific. Either sex is capable of lying, cheating, poor communication, and any number of anathemas to a happy marriage. Ultimately it takes two to make it work; it only takes one to fuck it up beyond all recognition. In the case of my marriage, the absolute inability to own responsibility for her poisonous thoughts—and the resultant heinous acts—proved too corrosive to overcome.
The idea that owning a penis makes you wrong by default is sexist—as outdated a social meme as any still plaguing modern woman. The sooner we dispense with the idea that simply being male means you are wrong in any scenario, the sooner we can address real problems in a meaningful way. Contrary to what fairy tales and rom-coms want us to believe, love is not enough to sustain a relationship. It’s just a good place to start—and a great reason to try.
♦◊♦
Are Husbands Really Assholes? Or Do Their Wives Just Think They Are? Lisa Hickey
Poor, Poor, Pitiful Men: The Martyr Complex of the American Husband, Hugo Schwyzer
♦◊♦
—Photo via The Accordance
Leave a Reply
51 Comments on "Being the Man Does Not Automatically Make Everything Your Fault"
.
That’s not quite what he’s saying. The indignation and call to 911 would come from those hearing about the abuse. Men get “what did you do?”
Maybe women got that 40 years ago, but I really doubt most people would say that today.
I know for a fact people don`t say that now because I have known a number of women who have been in abusive relationships and they where told by everyone to leave them after the first punch. Also whenever some woman writes about this online I have never seen anyone suggest anything other than leaving.
[…] I read Jackie Summers’s recent article about experiencing abuse from his ex-wife. First, let me acknowledge Jackie for the incredible […]
[…] men do speak up, they seldom find sympathetic supporters. In “Being the Man Does Not Automatically Make Everything Your Fault,” Jackie Summers relays his experience of sharing his history of being abused by his ex-wife: […]
[…] men do speak up, they seldom find sympathetic supporters. In “Being the Man Does Not Automatically Make Everything Your Fault,” Jackie Summers relays his experience of sharing his history of being abused by his ex-wife: […]
[…] Being the Man Does Not Automatically Make Everything Your Fault, Jackie Summers […]
“love is not enough” – I agree in 100%. great post Jackie!
[…] Being the Man Does Not Automatically Make Everything Your Fault, Jackie Summers […]
The violence is perpetrated by the woman then is justified by most of the people around her,
because of this she won’t get the help she needs until it’s too late.
Great article, we need more like this.
You’re fortunate you got out before you were an example of the extreme version of this common phenomenon. The one where she’s on trial for murder and everyone is speculating what you did to force her to kill you.
[…] Being the Man Does Not Automatically Make Everything Your Fault, Jackie Summers […]
Ally, this may be the most thoughtful comment ever. You elegantly sum up all of what I was trying to say in this: “Marriages and relationships are – must be – equal, bilateral, dynamic. Anyone who attempts to force individual circumstances into generalised frameworks is showing not insight but prejudice.”
Ever consider writing for The Good Men Project?
Jackie
Thanks Jackie. I’m waiting for The A-Bit-Crappy-But-Trying-Not-to-Be-Too-Much-Of-A-Dick Men Project to come along, would feel more comfortable there 😉
Kind sir, you may already be at home.
JFB
Clarence, you might also want to check out ifeminists.com.
Kirsten:
Thanks, but I’d dare say that “mainstream” feminism does not regard Wendy McElroy as a feminist. She’s too libertarian and egalitarian for them. There are exceptional feminists like her, but they are a minority 🙁
Are they really the minority, or are the minority just more vocal and more public than the majority of reasonable, decent people?
Wendy McElroy is far and away a minority among “feminists.” Many feminists even claim that she’s not really a feminist because she finds a way to be pro-female without being anti-male.
In theory yes, but in practice no.
Women have always been privileged in the ability to blame men. Society listens and believes women’s sob stories. Women and men are biased towards women in pain. Men’s pain is often neglected.
Excellent article! I agree, generalizations about who’s at fault when relationships end is not helpful to anyone.
Excellent.
The best and most rational piece I’ve read here on male / female relationships. Contrary to the notion spun in the articles written by feminists, the man is not always unilaterally to blame for relationship problems.
Eric, blaming all men for sexism is akin to blaming all white people for racism. Personal accountability will allow us to move forward in an intelligent manner. Placing blame based on intrinsic qualities hamstrings human evolution.
JFB
Yeah, I had that ex-fiance too. Almost married her. But then, somehow, I managed to grasp a measure of sanity and gonadal fortitude and said “No, the wedding is off.”
Best decision of my life, bar none with no doubts whatsoever. Dropped a girlfriend like a hot potato on Valentine’s Day for basically the same reason (i.e. the attitude that it’s all men’s fault).
Flee those kinds of women like fires of Hell. That’s my motto.
Too bad the author learned that lesson a little too late. Sad…
TWO, gonadal fortitude cannot be underestimated. Sadly enough, this behavior began AFTER we signed the papers. In her mind she became her Mom and I became her Dad, and she started to recreate her childhood. Fortunately, I did learn, and am the better for it.
JFB
Clarence, about a month into being married, we got into an argument over her then best friend, which culminated in her throwing a blue coffee mug branded by the Wall St. firm that employed me at my head. It made a hole in the wall over the bed. As I hung a painting over the hole, I thought to myself: mmmmmmmmmaybe we should wait a while before we had kids.
Best. Decision. Ever.
JFB
That was an amazing story webbed in a comment. You are a funny writer. And funny writers tend to piss people off… Watch out for the next one.
Gina, if you’re not pissing someone off, you’re just not doing something right ,-)
oxo
JFB
Ahh, a breath of fresh air.
But forgive me while I regurgitate what will be the majority feminist (not all but certainly the most vocal) response to this article:
But teh patriarchy! Men are at fault even when they aren’t personally at fault because they possess teh penis! Womyn can’t abuse men! They lack the institutional power!
Clarence, I will personally consider that kind of criticism from that particularly vocal minority, sheer praise. Anyone can abuse anyone, and preserving the lie that only those in power can be held accountable only prevents us from addressing real issues in a real way.
JFB
Clarence, please try to understand how patriarchy works as a system.
Yes, women can abuse men and people of color can abuse whites, but we still live in a male-dominated, white dominated society. And our culture stil thinks men are superior to women and whites are superior to people of color.
Sarah, in the short time I’ve written for GMP, I’ve addressed sexism, classism and racism. I completely understand the society we live in; how it benefits some and is designed to restrict others. The problem is: we are society. It’s made up of the thoughts we entertain, the ideals we embrace. And honestly, we can do better than this. It is on us to (re)define our humanity: to reject what’s been handed to us. Let’s create our own ethos. Let’s level the playing field, eliminate the double standard, hold everyone equally accountable.
Let’s remake society over in our own image.
JFB
“Clarence, please try to understand how patriarchy
works as a system.
“Yes, women can abuse men and people of color can
abuse whites, but we still live in a male-dominated,
white dominated society. And our culture still thinks
men are superior to women and whites are superior
to people of color.”
These beliefs are a reality in society. This a repulsive reality. This makes it all the more important that individuals that abuse others or act inappropriately based on those beliefs be held accountable for those actions – to do otherwise not only condones those beliefs it perpetuates them.
Yes, Sarah, and please remember how patriarchy casts all women as victims and all men as perpetrators. Men are agents, women are victims in the patriarchy. That is what Jackie is attacking and you are reinforcing. You are reinforcing the patrairachy.
“And our culture stil thinks men are superior to women ”
Our culture still thinks women are morally superior to men.
And WORTH far more, and more deserving of help and protection, and that they should be excused from anything bad they do, and that they should receive only half the punishment asa man for the same crime etc. etc. What a patriarchy indeed.
Yes, Sarah, and please remember how patriarchy casts all women as victims and all men as perpetrators. Men are agents, women are victims in the patriarchy. That is what Jackie is attacking and you are reinforcing. You are reinforcing the patrairachy.
“And our culture stil thinks men are superior to women ”
Our culture still thinks women are morally superior to men.
“This is usually the part where the initial question is repeated: “Why, what did YOU do?””
Yep, women too get this all the time. It’s assumed that she provoked him into hitting her. Sucks both ways.
Elizabeth, I agree 100%. We have to hold individuals accountable for their behavior, not entire species.
JFB
Wait a minute, women and men are not separate species.
Sarah I agree. The point was to lampoon hyperbolic statements, like “women are crazy” or “men are assholes.” The concept that the xx/xy chromosome combination makes us subsets of a genus is fallacy. If we can recognize our differences, maybe we can learn to respect each other in an entirely new way.
Because this is all going to be very difficult to explain to the ALIENS when they arrive.
JFB
So why say “don’t hit women” rather than “don’t hit anybody?”
[…] Being the Man Does Not Automatically Make Everything Your Fault, Jackie Summers […]