This is what I said to my Mom during a conversation we were having regarding my current situation while I’m in town for my godson’s communion. I continually have been humbled in my life by God in figuring out my purpose while listening to my heart. As I write this I have been struggling to find a way to support my family. At the same time I know this is part of a bigger plan. God’s plan. I shared my truth with my mom about hearing the voice that said write a book, write a blog and create a podcast on Dec 25, 2014.I told my mom “If I need to work at Starbucks, drive an Uber, I’ll do whatever it takes to support my three daughters. Mom have you forgotten what I’ve done in the past. I have made millions and now that there gone. I have surrendered my life to God. I’m taking action by doing what I’ve been told to do at a soul level. God is in my heart and HE has me by the balls.”
My mom’s face was priceless, her jaw dropped. She is a devout Catholic, goes to church every Sunday. In my own life it has been my life experiences that has brought me to God. I’ve been humbled many times, including now as I’m rediscovering myself, knowing I am the purpose and I have to start living it. I’m finally at peace with our wonderful relationship, having given Him the keys to my life to use me how ever He feels fit. Surrender and faith is what fuels me now. Its scary and at the same time the only way to live.
The rosaries are at the core of my spiritual fitness practice and have built my relationship with my mentor Jesus and our boss God over the last 20 years. Then I go for my run. I recall the conversation with my mom last night
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Now my mom is right to question me and I’m battling with the reality of the situation. So I continue to ask myself if I’m crazy? Is this in my head. The next day I do what I always do when I’m back to my hometown of Stamford, CT. First when I wake up I have a cup of coffee and do the rosaries. The rosaries are at the core of my spiritual fitness practice and have built my relationship with my mentor Jesus and our boss God over the last 20 years. Then I go for my run. I recall the conversation with my mom last night. She is right in her words, I do need to accept responsibility. As I run I pray and ask God for guidance. I run past my old house and remember how we use to play together in my front yard, all the good times we had together. I run by the old Little League field and see the flag from the 1983 Eastern Champions and remember the voice from my heart say “ I’m preparing you” when I walked off the mound after giving up the winning hit in the Little League World Series championship. Then I run through my old middle school and old high which are next door and I see tons of people walking. I ask someone what is going on and they say were off to a rosary celebration. My heart smiles as I’ve been doing that celebration daily for 20 years. Then I see two very young men dressed in priest clothes and I go up to them and ask if they are priests. They say that they’re in the seminary and aren’t priests yet. I asked please give me a blessing as I’m doing God’s work in the way I was created. He said I’ll try but don’t know if it will stick. I responded talk from your heart young brother and all will be good. He went on to do a blessing on all three of us. After the blessing I put my hands on each of there hearts and said “It’s in the Heart where God speaks.” Then I sprinted my way back home knowing God has my back. Always has and always will.
Live Brave,
Chris
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This article originally appeared on Chris Forte’s Blog
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