TASK #17:Â I GOTTA HAVE IT
“It is the final proof of God’s omnipotence that he need not exist in order to save us.” Peter De Vries
As I have chronicled before, my mornings suck, and I basically have to drag my ass out of the house–and work? It’s work — no more to be said… And that time between falling out of bed and walking into the office? That’s just as f–d up.
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I hadn’t even been awake for an hour and I was already disappointed… I started to think: I gotta change the way I think.
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On Friday, for example, I got maybe two miles from the house and the dark thoughts — brought on by the morning news, by the way — crept their way into my head.
I hadn’t even been awake for an hour and I was already disappointed. I was disappointed in the clothes I chose to wear. Now mind you, I shop for clothes at the discount store in the mall, so the bar is pretty low, but I was still disappointed in my outfit. I was disappointed in my car, which is one of those cars that every other cheap-ass schmo is driving — I don’t even have to tell you the make and model — or the color for that matter… you know what it is…
I was disappointed by my breakfast, which was a piece of toast and a bowl of Chex cereal. Who eats Chex? I do…
I was disappointed by the weather. I was disappointed by the aforementioned news, which was all about Trump’s tweets, which by the way is something else I’m disappointed in — I’m disappointed by the Commander in Chief. I was disappointed by my commute; I was disappointed by the score of the Indian’s game; I was disappointed by everything — even the face that stared at me in the rear view mirror disappointed me…
I started to think: I gotta change the way I think.
The reality was: I was disappointed in myself — that I had settled for things, that I had accepted mediocrity, that I didn’t fight back, that I didn’t try to change the things in my life that I was disappointed in, because I COULD change them. I could! I just had to shake off my lethargy, my apathy, my fear! And make changes in my life.
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Write down everything in your life that disappoints you. Pick out one thing. And change it.
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I started slow. You know what I did first? I sold that goddamned car. I lost a bit of money, but not that much, and I got myself a ride that made me want to drive it, and I was vindicated when a buddy said, “that’s a nice heap.”
Next, I changed my breakfast and I changed the channel on the radio. I got myself satellite radio and now I listen to Howard Stern.
Next up, I’m going clothes shopping.
TASK
Write down everything in your life that disappoints you. Pick out one thing. And change it.
