TASK #17: I GOTTA HAVE IT
“It is the final proof of God’s omnipotence that he need not exist in order to save us.” Peter De Vries
As I have chronicled before, my mornings suck, and I basically have to drag my ass out of the house–and work? It’s work — no more to be said… And that time between falling out of bed and walking into the office? That’s just as f–d up.
I hadn’t even been awake for an hour and I was already disappointed… I started to think: I gotta change the way I think.
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On Friday, for example, I got maybe two miles from the house and the dark thoughts — brought on by the morning news, by the way — crept their way into my head.
I hadn’t even been awake for an hour and I was already disappointed. I was disappointed in the clothes I chose to wear. Now mind you, I shop for clothes at the discount store in the mall, so the bar is pretty low, but I was still disappointed in my outfit. I was disappointed in my car, which is one of those cars that every other cheap-ass schmo is driving — I don’t even have to tell you the make and model — or the color for that matter… you know what it is…
I was disappointed by my breakfast, which was a piece of toast and a bowl of Chex cereal. Who eats Chex? I do…
I was disappointed by the weather. I was disappointed by the aforementioned news, which was all about Trump’s tweets, which by the way is something else I’m disappointed in — I’m disappointed by the Commander in Chief. I was disappointed by my commute; I was disappointed by the score of the Indian’s game; I was disappointed by everything — even the face that stared at me in the rear view mirror disappointed me…
I started to think: I gotta change the way I think.
The reality was: I was disappointed in myself — that I had settled for things, that I had accepted mediocrity, that I didn’t fight back, that I didn’t try to change the things in my life that I was disappointed in, because I COULD change them. I could! I just had to shake off my lethargy, my apathy, my fear! And make changes in my life.
Write down everything in your life that disappoints you. Pick out one thing. And change it.
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I started slow. You know what I did first? I sold that goddamned car. I lost a bit of money, but not that much, and I got myself a ride that made me want to drive it, and I was vindicated when a buddy said, “that’s a nice heap.”
Next, I changed my breakfast and I changed the channel on the radio. I got myself satellite radio and now I listen to Howard Stern.
Next up, I’m going clothes shopping.
TASK
Write down everything in your life that disappoints you. Pick out one thing. And change it.