“And once the storm is over, you won’t remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won’t even be sure, whether the storm is really over.
But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm, you won’t be the same person who walked in. That’s what this storm’s all about.”
– Haruki Murakami
I feel vulnerable, raw, real and uncut.
I’ve barely left the studio the last few months. Only to eat nutritious meals and catch the occasional yoga class and some martial arts. Body movement of the utmost degree feels necessary now to channel all this energy pulsating throughout my veins.
This is no “depression.”
I feel guided, clear, calm and directed. I complete the tasks at hand. My heart beats intensely and my blood flows in a passionate rage.
Make no mistake…I AM FUCKING ALIVE.
Need for validation or for any explanation from the outside world justifying what I’m feeling inside, is and always was…meaningless.
Genuine freedom when embodied in its true form requires no validation or explanation, carrying along with it zero need to prove oneself to anyone. It just is. Authentic freedom is a powerhouse range of emotions and dedication can communicate everything without the utterance of a single word.
Knowledge means nothing unless it’s transformed into action.
Be at peace. The world will realize your creation in due time.
The seeds you’ve planted already have taken root and when they sprout there won’t be any need for explanation. No words spoken. People will just notice and BELIEVE.
Harvest time draws near. Trust.
Where are we headed? What does the future hold? I’m not sure and quite honestly, I don’t care. I surrendered away the illusions of control and any futile attempt to understand the concept of destination a long time ago.
One thing remains certain, life’s about the journey, and this is something I breathe.
I’ve got nothing left to lose and EVERYTHING left to gain. Life’s storms been weathered, I’ve endured it and survived. TRANSFORMATION IS REAL. This storm made me stronger, changing me for the better. The price? Releasing the life I knew before and completely wiping the slate clean. Rock bottom became the foundation on which I rebuilt my life, and I have rebuilt it MY WAY.
By coming into full acceptance that it’s you and ONLY YOU who creates your own limitations of what you can do and where you can go is when life can finally instantaneously change. True freedom is realized and the world becomes your own personal playground of infinite possibilities.
So come on storm. Bring It. I’m ready…