The Experience That Made Understanding Women Easy Enough for a Man

Orin J Hahn discovered what women want and need from men, by appreciating the journey of raising his daughter.

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I hadn’t planned on being a father when I was 24. Honestly, I was still figuring out how to get better at pretending to be a grown up. I had my own apartment, a wife, a role in my family’s business, and I was building upon my dreams of being a fashion photographer as well. So while it all looked together on the surface, underneath I still felt like a child. When an actual child entered the picture everything stirred all up.

To make matters more complicated I knew that a big part of my feeling childish was feeling at a loss when interacting with my wife. We met when I was 20; she was seven years older. A lifetime of hearing how women mature faster just meant that I easily fell into a trap of passivity, self-doubt, and believing that she knew best. It was only a few years later that it unraveled and we split.

Single for the first time as an adult I found myself having the space to learn whatever answers I could discover—answers about life, women, and being true to myself. So what did I learn from my weekends and time alone with my daughter? This:

1. Be present/Share a moment – When I would spend time with my daughter I would try to figure everything out. I was constantly making up things to do based on the limited time and money available. There was always a fear of “what do I do next?”

One time we went to the playground and bought a sandwich to split. As soon as we got there I handed it to her and said, “Finish this and then go play with those kids over there.” She just looked at me and said, “This is good. Here.”

There was something so simple and deep about it. I started to repeat what I had just  said and found that I couldn’t. I was always rushing. But she was happy to just sit with me. It made me realize to leave what was next for next. Don’t forget to savor the shared now.

It’s too easy to accumulate an undigested life and go hungry.

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2. Women aren’t crazy/Empathy – Every guy has faced the body issues of a woman. Whether it’s the “does this make me look fat?” question or just a general feeling of self-denigration.

During my early years in the fashion industry I heard it to no end. Quite honestly though, I didn’t get it. I mean, after all, I wasn’t an ideal body type, but I could find clothes, so what was the issue? Why couldn’t women just shop accordingly? I didn’t really get it until I  went through the toddler to preteen stage of shopping for my daughter’s clothes.

I always bought her clothes, and for the first four or five years this was easy. Pick something cute, warm, or light as need be, and go to the size that was her age. I mean the clothes were labeled straightforward enough. That is until age six or so … I remember going with her to pick up jeans. I grabbed a size 6 and told her to put them on without really looking beyond the label. As she pulled them on she wriggled and looked awkward. She had a hard time closing them and started to cry saying “Dad, does this mean I’m fat now?”

She took them off and changed, and I noticed that the pants were nearly rectangular. They weren’t just a bit tighter, they were cut to a length that was for a much taller person with about two-thirds the circumference of my kid. I was shocked, these pants at a regular kids store looked like one of those drawings you would see in an exaggerated fashion sketch mock-up.

Feeling her pain and seeing how early on unrealistic expectations come into the picture for women really drove home the point. Body issues and doubt are sown early. And being aware of it as a man is a step towards empathy between the sexes. I let her know she was beautiful and only the pants needed to change.

We all feel ugly or wrong sometimes, we just need reminding that there are other choices.

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3. Leading/Communicating – Like all dads I found myself facing the question of authority—the are we there yets and do I have tos? I learned to pay attention to the difference in how I say things. When do I want it to be an order, a request, or an inquiry that welcomes feedback?

Realizing how to deliver your words is as essential as what you say. Beyond tuning into tone is the importance of understanding what it is that’s wanted. Part of learning that was making it a shared lesson for her in how to lead me as well.

Many times early on in our alone time she would sit in her room and talk aloud if she wanted something, even if I was in the next room. One time she stormed over to me upset that I wasn’t paying attention or caring about what she said. In that moment I instructed her that I would always care, but it was HER job to make the message deliverable, i.e. see if I’m busy first, then ask if I have a moment and make eye contact.

Before you can guide another it is crucial to know yourself.

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4. Accountability – I’d like to say that as a father and a man I do it well and always get it right. I’d also like to say I’m a billionaire, too. Neither is true.

There are times when I make a call or pick a direction and I am proven wrong. The only thing more frustrating than that is having a little person be the witness—a smart, articulate little person who gets bigger and doesn’t forget.

Being around her the last fifteen years has taught me the importance of owning who I am, including my mistakes and missteps. And having a sense of humor about them too. It’s not uncommon for me to tell her I was wrong, or that she had a better idea and that she’s a smart kid.

One of the first times I had to take accountability wasn’t lighthearted or easy. Shortly after the separation, especially as the court battles were raging, I would say regrettable things. On one such occasion, my daughter started crying and said: “But that’s my mommy.” In that moment I started growing up and realizing how interwoven we all are. I immediately apologized and let her know that I had been wrong to say that.

Being able to own my good and bad moments has allowed my daughter to trust me, and just as importantly, to trust herself because we don’t have a relationship built on the illusion of infallibility.

Developing dialogues around where the missteps lets us both of us be more than roles; it lets us be whole human beings together.

What ways has one relationship helped you better understand the world around you? Share here or tweet at me. I’m always interested to hear these things

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Other Articles on GMP by Orin J. Hahn at:

A Lifetime of Gifts Change Everything

A Look Inside her Mind: 5 Things Women Want you to Know

Forgiveness: How to Move Forward
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