The Deadliest Weapon of All Time

I often wonder how people perceive me

What they see is merely a jolly, motivated and cheerful person

versus what I am — a emotional, sad and introverted version.

The truer self is not even reflected in the mirror I see everyday,

all I see is a hideous pretense that I have put out on display.

Oh how I hide my sorrows in my heart.

If only I was able to set those feelings apart.

The sad and hurtful ones to dramatically less significant ones.

How I try to figure out where it all began.

I wonder..

I wonder what people do

when they have nothing to hold on to.

In situations, where they need to fight back and survive through.

Not with actual weapons,

but fighting with something more powerful

that is constantly arguing with the inner mind.

To try and make every thought process aligned.

A chaotic mind can be a dangerous one,

especially when words are left unspoken and undone.

Swallowing words that cut deep into the heart can be invasive to the mind,

taking over the heart first and then becoming unconfined.

I hear the unspoken words taking a monstrous form.

Growing in my heart like an unstoppable storm.

These words are full of pain, hatred and sorrow,

resulting in sadness that only know how to grow

My body then becomes home to a plethora of words

that never see the light of this world.

They are born and remain in my eyes until I have cried.

I fight with myself and listen to my screams,

I feel it in my tears that flows down like a stream.

How do I take revenge, you ask?

What weapons do I use to defend my stance, you ask?

I say, nothing.

The unspoken words are my last resort.

They are not to be shared but to remain in my mind fort

Words have the ability to be hurtful and crush beautiful dreams

Sometimes with the ability to take down one’s self esteem

How, I wonder…

Maybe they pierce through the heart and mind at the same time,

or maybe just crushes the soul resulting in a massive crime

Are words the greatest weapon man ever possessed? I wonder… I wonder

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This post was previously published on MEDIUM.COM.

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