The Way You Lived (Insurance #0)

A new poem by Alexander Humphries.

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It is cold reality at its finest

To see how you have become a testament

Of what a human can endure — mind, body, and spirit.

That is to say it is an arcane sensation of divine properties

To see you shine and survive throughout your existence

With — at once —

Intense strands of diamond light,

Reaching to the far ends of space and your personal history

To shed compassion, empathy, sacrifice, humanity

As much as a brain can contain

And

A pale crepuscular glow

Dancing tragically indigo — smoldering —

‘Cross the dying of our days — reeling, undulating, into ambedo, swaying in thought —

In modern ballet

With a broken heel

Waning in the dusk sky, (howling)

And dreaming of a better dawn,

Always dreaming…

I would like it

If the relentless ache of your life

Would leave you the fuck alone

For awhile.

I would like to

Give your thoughts: some flowers — scented sweetly as your smiling eyes –,

Some sanctuary for safe keeping,

Some oceanic asylum guarded by leagues of darkened seas and foaming waves,

Your fantastic oasis adorned in every shade of purple, sconces and all.

But I’m insurance #0 and the cutting coincidence of the present moment

Has severed my pockets, face, and arms outstretched still, towards you

Grasping at the breeze generated by your passage

Piercing transient through my life like an ethereal spike

Photo: Flickr – Taymaz Valley/”Diamond”