In a (sort of) internal monologue, Kevin Yi examines his manhood: what it means, where it comes from and how he is putting it to use.
I like to think of myself as a quintessential man. (Yeah, I don’t have the ability to grow the facial hair needed to prove it, but I promise that I am a man!) I have the biological hardware necessary to be a man and all of the other things that come with it.
I love sports. My eyes can sometimes wander towards the opposite sex’s assets. Sometimes, if I wake up a little too early, a little bit of my pee can end up on the toilet seat.
Now some of these things are positive and others not so much but like many other men in the modern age, I am very proactive about trying to become the man that every woman wants. One of my favorite Robin Thicke’s lyrics is, “I’m like Bigfoot, I’m the man your mama says doesn’t exist.”
So what do I do?
I read the blogs and watch the videos. I have picked up some new personal icons that have influenced my style and behavior. I have joined the YMCA and actively go work out to improve my body image. I read all kinds of different books so I can carry on intelligent conversations.
But what is the honest truth? Just because I become a better person, at least in terms of the world’s view, it doesn’t necessarily mean that I’ll become attractive to all women. To be honest, I don’t even want to attract all women… just that one. See all of this work is meant to ease the already present difficulty that comes with the search for true love, but what if I am wasting my time searching for romance when I am meant for something bigger?
Have we ever considered, what if Van Gogh was meant to bring us world peace, but lost himself in art to try and get the ladies? Just saying.
I mean, is Nick Wooster as really as stylish as I think he is. Is Abramovic’s art even art? Sometimes it feels like I am watching something really naughty…. and I mean really naughty. Don’t even get me started on some of this crap that I’ve been reading… it is awful! It makes me think that maybe I should become a writer despite my grammatical errors and lack of ebb and flow.
Those are just questions that I struggle with. Of course, I respect Marina’s art and Nick Wooster’s style.
The only thing I know for sure though… Nutella makes everything better.