How do I let go
of something I never had?
Why do I miss you so
And want you back so bad?
…
If we were never us
and us were never we
Why does it feel
I’m missing the biggest part of me?
…
I get that it wasn’t us
that we weren’t a pair
But why’s it so hard
When I try not to care?
…
It ended before it started
Was over before it begun
Five years in the making
Only to see it all run
…
Right out the door
and out of our sight
Leaving only a hole
in this deep dark night
…
But what can I say
Can’t even reach out
You’ve made that quiet clear
of that, there’s no doubt
…
Your silence is loud
My heart hears it well
There’s no place to hide
From this internal Hell
…
Where “what if?” and “why not?”
swirl around and around
inside my head
yet without sound
…
Because what can I say?
What words are allowed?
There’s no going back
It’s all too late now
…
Something I never had
so hard to give up
Something I’ll always want…
your kind of love.
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This post was previously published on medium.com.
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