“At any given moment, you have the power to say,
THIS IS NOT HOW THE STORY IS GOING TO END.”
– Christine Mason Miller
Some days you feel so incredibly strong, like you can literally accomplish anything on the face of this planet. Those days you feel like you’re walking on sunshine and dancing with unicorns under rainbow colored skies delightfully filled by optimism and hope.
And then there’s those days like one I experienced the other day, where your entire existence doesn’t make sense and life somehow seems to have lost itself in a twisted maze of hopeless despair.
Days like these oftentimes come without warning, and before you know it a tsunami sized wave of self-destructive emotion crushes you and leaves you feeling like there is zero chance of changing anything about it.
But what if there was a solution?
Good news, there is…and later I’ll reveal what the solution was for me personally.
Now back to the story…
The other day I had one of those days. I was suddenly blindsided by an overwhelming wave of, what felt like at the time, the most intense downward emotional spiral I’ve experienced yet since before triumphing victoriously and overcoming the severe depression and anxiety that plagued my life for over ten years. Any and all sensations related to those two life contaminating parasites, I believed I’d kissed them all goodbye for good.
But I didn’t…
To sum it up, this recent experience brought me to my knees. This was the closest I’ve ever been to calling it quits with my business, living in Bali and everything I do on social media.
This intense wave of emotion paralyzed me, and momentarily I fell back into an old familiar pattern that at one time dominated my depression riddled past.
Previously, whenever I felt like I was drowning in an overwhelming sea of emotion, in desperation I’d grasp and reach out for any love, care, support and encouragement I could get, but always from somewhere outside myself. I seemed to have this false hope that I’d soon discover all these things externally.
It was just another endless search built upon another impossible expectation that other people or things would fulfill me, and one always leaving me feeling more hopeless, disappointed, depressed and lonely than before.
Sadly, to myself I thought, “I am incapable of receiving love, care, support and encouragement. “None of these things can ever be found, and I will never experience them.”
It never donned upon me at the time, but I was entirely missing the point on where to search for all these things to begin with and kept forgetting to look for any of these things within myself.
But on Tuesday, in the passing of my own reflection in the mirror, I stopped and paused. Upon gazing intensely and deeply into my own eyes, I suddenly felt an reemergence of an old familiar power reignite and surge through my veins…REMEMBRANCE.
I remembered my power.
I remembered who I AM.
I remembered I AM WORTHY.
I remembered I AM THE CREATOR OF MY REALITY, and I CAN CHOOSE RIGHT NOW in this moment to love, care for, support and encourage MYSELF.
The solution was The Man in the Mirror.
Truthfully, none of us are ever devoid of love, care, support and encouragement. This is a false belief, a thought, and far from reality.
All the love, care, support and encouragement you will ever need, always happens to be staring back at you in the mirror. By fully developing these traits within yourself, it will enable you to become fully capable of sharing these authentic experiences with another.