I’ve been in a rut lately.
Well, I guess you could call it a rut. I’m not quite sure what it is.
What I do know is that I’m beginning to cringe when people ask me, “How’s everything going?” I used to love answering that question. But for whatever reason, I haven’t felt the same for a couple months.
For the first time in awhile, business isn’t doing well.
I’m not sure if that’s the cause or the consequence. Hell, maybe it’s both. Yes, it’s probably both by now.
Things feel like static.
No signal, you know?
There are times when my thoughts are as sharp as a blade. Lately, most of my thoughts are dull. I’m trudging along slowly. That’s not a pace I’m used to, and it’s bothering me quite a bit.
I’m there, but not present.
And I want so badly to be present.
This is not a sympathy post.
I’m having a tough time writing this piece, but I think I need to write it.
At this point, I don’t think it’s been therapeutic to me. But I think that’s ok. I didn’t intend it to be. Really, I wanted this piece to serve another purpose.
I’m writing this piece to let you know that I feel you.
If you’re going through what I’m going through right now, just know that you’re not alone. I haven’t found the way out of the darkness quite yet, but I know that light is there. I’ve got hope. And I hope you have hope too.
We’ll get through this. I know we will.
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