Confronting Life

Confronting Life photo by Anna Levinzon

Aaron Gouveia and his wife were already having the worst day of their lives. Then they encountered the abortion protesters.

“You’re killing your unborn baby!”

That’s what they yelled at me and my wife on the worst day of our lives. As we entered the women’s health center on an otherwise perfect summer morning in Brookline, two women we had never met decided to pile onto the nightmare we had been living for three weeks. These “Christians” verbally accosted us—judged us—as we steeled ourselves for the horror of making the unimaginable, but necessary, decision to end our pregnancy at 16 weeks.

After extensive testing at a renowned Boston hospital three weeks earlier, we were told our baby had Sirenomelia. Otherwise known as Mermaid Syndrome, it’s a rare (one in every 100,000 pregnancies) congenital deformity in which the legs are fused together. Worse than that, our baby had no bladder or kidneys. Our doctors told us there was zero chance for survival.


I’m not a religious person and I’ve never believed in heaven or hell. But there is a hell on Earth. Hell is sitting next to the person you love most and listening to her wail hysterically because her heart just broke into a million pieces. Hell is watching her entire body convulse with sobs because she’s being tortured with grief. For as long as I live and no matter how many children we have, I will never forget that sound. And I vowed to do everything in my power to make sure she’d never make it again.

Across a crowded street, two people with “God Is Pro-Life!” signs and pictures of torn-up fetuses managed to drive the blade in even deeper. Again, I was left trying to console the inconsolable, feeling even more helpless this time, because I wasn’t allowed into surgery with her.

Running on pure adrenaline, and without even a hint of a plan, I grabbed my cell phone and crossed the street. I didn’t know what to say or how to say it, I just knew I wanted to make public the cowardice of these protesters.



I learned a few important things from this encounter. First, these people aren’t used to being confronted. They prey on the weak and they pounce on the wounded. It’s easy to berate people and shame them when they’re too beaten down to fight back. But I chose to do just that, and you can see what happened.

They spout the same tired rhetoric passed out at rallies and subway stations. They don’t have one salient response to any of my questions.

The most telling thing about their cowardice is when the woman on the right gets upset that I’m recording the conversation (which is perfectly legal) and then threatens to call the police. The irony is rich. She wanted to call the police because I was peacefully expressing my opinion on a public sidewalk and exercising my First Amendment rights, which is exactly what she was doing. But I’m not on “God’s side,” am I.

She also claims the women at the clinic are suicide risks. Even if she believed that were true, does she really think yelling at them and shaming them in public is going to encourage these women not to kill themselves?


After I took a walk and calmed down, it was time to pick up my wife and go home. When we pulled out of the clinic, the protesters were gone, and a police cruiser was parked nearby with the lights flashing. My wife, still groggy from the surgery, managed to crack a little smile, and asked, “What did you do?”

I have no idea if it was my interaction with the protesters that got them to leave. I doubt it was, but my wife was convinced that was the case. At first, I didn’t think of it as a big deal, and I actually felt a little foolish for getting so heated.

My wife, suddenly serious, pointed out a women entering the clinic. Within minutes, she said, that woman would be making a serious choice. Whether she kept her baby or not, it didn’t matter—what matters is that she can make the decision that’s right for her. And she can make it without people screaming at her.

My wife and I wanted our second child. We loved her. We even had a name for her, Alexandra.

You never know the circumstances surrounding this kind of decision. Consider this my plea: stop terrorizing women. Stop adding trauma to their trauma. If you’re able, stand up to these bullies in nonviolent ways. Speak out. And if you have a camera, use it.


Read Aaron Gouveia’s follow-up piece to Confronting LIfe, “I Will Lie To Patients (Well, Only If They’re Having An Abortion)”.

—Aaron Gouveia is a regular contributor to The Good Men Project Magazine. Stereotypes for lunch Sign up for daily or weekly email

About Aaron Gouveia

Aaron is husband to a woman far too beautiful to have married him, and father of two sons far too perfect to be his. After nearly a decade as a Boston-area journalist, he decided to actually get paid and became a content manager. When he's not griping about his beloved Boston sports teams, he's detailing life as a dad at The Daddy Files. You can follow him on Twitter (@DaddyFiles) and Facebook.


  1. Thanks for being one of the good guys! That was very courageous of you, and an excellent way to deal with your frustrations. Thanks for being strong enough to say what needed said, and to help the other women coming to the clinic that day. You’re a good man, and your wife is a very lucky woman.

    Thank you thank you thank you!

  2. I am one of the lucky ones to have only encountered peaceful protesters on the day I went to have my abortion. I am still in shock and don’t know how I would have felt if I had someone in my face on that day. Your wife is very lucky to have a person like you to stand up for her when she needed it most. On behalf of others in the situation I was in two weeks ago THANK YOU!

  3. voiceofthevoiceless says:

    Well done for confronting them

  4. Thank you for doing somthing for your wife in such a situation. It is people like you by standing up for women who may not have a choice they would make if the baby was healthy or she is in a situation where she can care for it that child, thank you so very much.

  5. Amazing. Thank you for sharing your experience. It’s refreshing to see this from the father’s perspective. Thank you for standing up to this individuals.

  6. I’m so sorry you had to do this on such a horrific day. I wish people would be kinder and understanding with one another.

  7. Thank you for this.

  8. I’m thrilled you stood up for yourself and your wife!! These people are so out of touch with reality it is disgusting. A family member had a similar experience when visiting her ob/gyn while pregnant with no insurance coverage. This particular dr also performed abortions along with prenatal care and delivery. So when my family member would go to her regular visits, she would get screamed at, cursed, told how horrible she was. All the while she was clearly due anytime. I had to take similar steps as you and call these freaks out. They too couldn’t possibly spout anything but gibberish. On top of all of it…they have their very young children out with them in 95 degree South Florida hear. Of course I pointed out how closely that came to abuse. Fortunately they left this lady alone when they saw her!! Thank you for your blog and many sorrows for your and your wifes loss!


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