Ethan Fletcher – Boy on the Bridge [Video]

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it feels like
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like i’m standing on the edge of a
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bridge in my life and i’m looking down
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into the darkness of the ocean’s abyss
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hearing voices calling my name you see
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they’re begging me to jump
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in and submerge myself into
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forgetfulness and for some reason i had
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the guts to turn my back towards that
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ocean and start walking but
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it only took one bad decision that life
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had to bring
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they caused me to misplace my footing
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and then before i knew what i was
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thinking
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i mean it happened so fast confused i
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couldn’t even comprehend what happened
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to what’s now happening because it was
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pleasantly terrifying and i’m sinking
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you know i’m standing here like when did
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this happen when did i
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become so paralyzed so numb that i
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didn’t even realize
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i gave in i mean i fought so long to
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hold on to this
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but in the end i just let myself go so
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he decided to run away and now i’m lost
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and i’m lonely
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you see i’m just in a really bad place
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that i’m trying to find myself
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has has anyone seen the old me
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no i mean the real me you see the
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forgiving the innocent
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they’re not taking life so heavy or
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being so angry or gave a dime what took
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people seriously
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me but then he came back and he found me
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a faceless image of a face i couldn’t
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even recognize so i’m here standing
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staring at my reflection
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shouting cursing from the top of my
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lungs cause all i see is a curse who’s
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worthless so i spat in his face and i
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told him you will be no better
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and then chess filled his eyes and he
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stared right back at me like he’d seen a
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monster
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but no one sees the little boy weeping
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who’s trapped in the cage i didn’t know
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you see no one sees a horror within they
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only see the mask of
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smiles and laughter then i used to
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escape my inner halloween
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and i can assure you some tricks there’s
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no treat to it
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but i feel like a surrogate i saw that
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it gets better at the surface bruh
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all you have to do is breathe right but
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tell me how can i when it feels like
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every breath i take i suffocate
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see so many of us so many of us search
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for love to fix us but
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many of us searched the wrong place and
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it pulls us in deeper
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but he said that if you have a little
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faith and you close your eyes and you
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see everything like how in the night the
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stars shine
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bright like in your darkness you witness
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the works of the maker you see not
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everyone has a happy ending but i can
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assure you that not everyone has to have
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a bad one either
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but here’s a blade to my gullet and i
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was sitting there begging for stream to
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set my final destination
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i mean i’m afraid to die but i’ve
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searched so long for death that even
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he decided to take a vacation i mean
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only that much of an abomination is left
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for
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dead and gone something to anyone
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on this earth disguise
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or beyond i said am i that much of an
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abomination just left for dead and gone
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so i’m pleading to anyone on this earth
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in my despair disguise
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you

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