Each day I awake being a human being in the midst of living in between apologies and wishing trees. I am looking for truth in the television, the magazine and the printed news. I want his story, her story and my story to make a difference in the chaos of our modern world. I am standing beneath my umbrella as a rain of affairs plummet down upon me and I am crying my wishes for my personal safety to be guaranteed. I am in fear of what will happen to my daughter, her children and their future. I am in fear of what will happen to people of color, women, gays and transgenders. I don’t like living in fear, but fear greets me every morning as I wake.
I calm the fear within me with meditation and daily acts of being in action. I make no apologies.
I stay afloat because of my belief system and my way of living a conscious life, my part in being my own hero. I become proactive when the fear touches my soul and my heart begins to ache. I have to embrace my dream of living in a world grounded in love, peace, and equal opportunity for all people. I have a dream that people will learn to live outside of the state of fear and become to know the solution of being loving. I have a dream of sewing the seams of the sky together, so we can catch the tears of the sky and water the fears of the world so we can turn evil into love. The letters are the same, but their meanings are the opposite. It is time to flip the coin, and turn the letters around. I want to live and not be swimming in evil or any apology for my failure.
I want for us to be united in conscious conversations, encircled in the union of being a village of people that support the state of harmonious life and living.
Because I was raised with a grandfather who built churches and took care of the sick, I believe in reaching out to touch the less fortunate. I was raised by a grandmother who taught me the art of forgiveness and hope. My family sang gospel music to feed their souls, to remind them of the grace of living above ground. I was raised to believe love was the answer to the obstacles of life and the way to live as you had a heaven on earth. We lived our lives as working, sharing members of a village alive with people and the business of caretaking. There was no evil in being in need of money, love, guidance or simple support. With our loving acts of giving help, I learn to give love as an echo to receive the happiness that would become a singing bell jar where receivers benefited from being loved and notes of loving would heal your aching pains.
Our individual lives were simple in its application. Love and be Loved.
I have fears that the very people who profess to be givers of love are the very ones who are withholding the love that needs to be given. I am sure if Christ came down to earth at this moment, he would be horrified at the lack of love given out in our modern world. And, Christ was not one to be hanging out with the rich enveloped in their acquisition of wealth, while there are homeless people who are daily going without food or a place to live. We are supposed to be a “Christian” nation, as so many say. But actions speak louder than words. We don’t want immigrants, the poor, people of color, women who quest for equality and certainly not gays who want to be legally married. We have people feeling homeless because of being disenfranchised, unwanted.
The only equality I am seeing is one of the privilege sharing with the privilege, be it money or religion.
I just want life to be sacred because I stand in awe of the energy of life, the breath of the living in the moment of the loving grace of life. And, I live in the “circle of love,” giving to receive the benefits coming back to me in its own time. I am an “artist of solution and change.” I am a “living mirror of healing“ not allowing ego to stop a true reflection without interfering with the process of anyone’s life journey. I am just part of the on-going conversation of life, a facilitator of life’s healing circle.
I am a facilitator of energy and truth teller of word and images, because these factors create my world and sustain my spirit.
As a sustainable artist, I feel it is my job to transform the life journey given to me and reflective back or echo in the context within my many art forms. The power of my voice is my key to a more fuller conversation. I am willing to speak my truth and roll up my sleeve to get busy and help to make my dreams manifest. I will not allow my latent fears to come sit with me and become my truth. My fears are my seeds of change, because I know the weakness that is not feeding me or my soul. I realize this is a sign for a change in my personal behavior. I must be willing to change in order of embrace my transformation. It is time to become and I will be proactive in being my own hero which in turn allows me to be a hero for the world.
The healing starts with me.