The Narcissist’s Playbook Revealed

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Here is a summary of the transcript from YouTube, slightly edited with AI.

Why Is It So Difficult to Get Over a Narcissistic Relationship?

“I don’t see it the way you see it. Stop bringing this up.”

“Shouldn’t it be, in some ways, easier?”

He consistently blamed you for everything and never…

These are the people that betray us the most.

“I told you so many times that I just can’t do this anymore.”

They are the people who treated us worse than anybody else in our lives.

And all you have to do is ignore.

So, why is it so uniquely difficult to move on?

We are going to talk about why it is so hard to get over a narcissist, why the betrayals of a narcissist become wounds that do not heal the right way, and why it is so painfully unrewarding to try to get closure with a narcissist.

We’re going to do this by talking about the three traps that we routinely fall into when we are trying to move on from a narcissist.

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Trap #1: Looking for Closure From the Narcissist

The first one is looking for closure from the narcissist themselves.

There is the tendency to confront that person and think that in confronting that person, there is going to be some kind of catharsis. It’s going to make us feel better.

We’re going to get the “I told you so” moment or “I knew,” and I’m going to get at least the righteousness of being right, of them being wrong and them having to apologize.

The problem is, with a person like this, you’re not experiencing someone who is meeting you on the same moral landscape as you are meeting them.

You have someone who, at minimum, has massively impaired empathy.

So, they are not able to hear you in pain, to register the damage that they have done, and then to reflect that back at you and to truly acknowledge that they have caused this pain and to feel bad about it.

They might say to you, “I only did it because of you and something you did.”

So, they try and shift the blame.

They might say, “I can’t believe you’re making such a big deal out of this.”

So, trying to minimize it and make you seem like the crazy one for making such a big deal out of it.

They might start citing their issues and going into victim mode.

There’s something that’s true of people like this, which is they will only ever be the hero or the victim.

When they’re on top and they’re in power, they’ll be the hero. When their power is stripped of them, they will be the victim.

What they will never be is wrong.

When They Are Never Wrong

And by the way, if you ever find yourself confused with a person like this, where they have clearly betrayed you, but they’re confusing you with their logic, anyone in this life who is never wrong has no credibility.

So, if you’re ever feeling confused, that is a very simple test you can apply.

How often is this person wrong?

And if the answer is little to never, then you can suspect that what you’re feeling is much more likely to be the truth than whatever they are selling to you.

Either way, whether they go to the hero or the victim, both come from a place of ego.

Both come from a place of, “I am special. I am significant. I’m either amazing and you should worship me, or I’m downtrodden and you should feel sorry for me.”

Both come from an egotistical place.

Neither offer you the relief, the catharsis, the closure, the healing that you’re actually looking for in this moment from that person.

Whenever I’m coaching people, I’m always saying to them, if you want to have the conversation with this person for your own peace of mind, so that you said it, so that you got it off your chest, by all means, go ahead.

But do not mistake this conversation for one that is going to be satisfying.

In fact, it’s far more likely that you will leave this conversation less certain than you are right now.

You might have a certain kind of righteous anger right now about what this person has done and how in the wrong they are, and how obvious it is that they have been an awful person to you, or how obvious it is that they are an awful person.

You will come out of that conversation, most likely, more confused than you went in.

I really believe that one of the greatest things we can learn in life is who to expect solace from and who never to expect solace from.

Life is about energy management, and we will always be unhappy if we are directing more of our energy to the people in life who cause us the most pain.

Anger and Self-Blame

The second thing that you will likely have as you think more about this person is anger.

Anger about the time that they have wasted. Anger about what they have done.

And that can very quickly get turned inwards to anger at ourselves for the time we have wasted with this person.

I have had people say to me, “You know, Matthew, I’ve gotten to the point where I am over this person, but now I can’t seem to forgive myself for how long it took me to leave, for how many years of my life I gave to that person, for how many times I let them treat me so badly.”

“I’m angry at myself. I’m ashamed. I’m embarrassed. And I don’t know how to let go of that and move on.”

We are going to talk about that towards the end of this video.

But first, I want to talk about trap number two: being made to feel sorry for this person.

Trap #2: Being Made to Feel Sorry for the Narcissist

Now, many of us struggle with this because, in a relationship with a person like this, we have been conditioned to feel sorry for this person.

They have, over time, told us about their wounds, their childhood trauma, their PTSD.

They have talked about all of the ways life has been hard for them.

And very often, no matter what someone does and no matter how bad it gets, our wiring from this relationship takes us back to feeling sorry for this person.

This is especially dangerous when we’re the kind of person who is extremely empathetic.

When we’re prone to taking the blame for things, many of us have spent a lifetime being conditioned to say sorry.

Even when things aren’t our fault, we say sorry to keep the peace.

We say sorry because we never want to be the person who does not own our mistakes.

When you’ve got someone in life who’s not playing by the rules, they’re not just asking you to apologize when you genuinely make a mistake.

They’re asking you to apologize for their mistakes.

It is very easy for us to now have our empathy used against us.

And this can create a loop for us where they betray us. They do something horrible. We get angry, and that anger eventually gives way to feeling sorry for them and a feeling of guilt that we have been too ruthless in the way that we have handled them.

Don’t Change Your Empathy—Change Its Direction

I had someone in my love life coaching program ask me a question two weeks ago about this where they said, “I am afraid now that I am out of a relationship like this that my empathy is going to get used against me again in the next relationship.”

“I’m going to meet someone, there might be some initial attraction, and then someone is going to weaponize my empathy. They’re going to take advantage of me all over again. What can I do? I don’t want to change myself. My empathy is a part of me.”

And the thing I said to her is, you don’t need to change your empathy.

You don’t need to abandon what is actually one of the most beautiful parts of you.

You need to change the target for your empathy.

So far, your empathy has all been directed outwards to another person, maybe to other people in general.

That empathy is like a cannon. It’s a powerful, powerful thing you have on your side.

But when the focus of that empathy is always going outwards, you’re going to be vulnerable.

What if we turned the cannon of that empathy and we turned it all the way until it was pointed at yourself?

What if we made you the target of your empathy?

What if you thought about your experience as much as you thought about somebody else’s experience?

Then you could weaponize your empathy for your own gain.

So that the next time you’re in a relationship where you start to see patterns of behavior that are unhealthy or toxic, that don’t honor your needs, lie to you, gaslight you, invalidate your experience, when you start to see that, your empathy doesn’t go to them and understanding them and why they are the way they are and all of that.

I’m not saying you have to drop that completely, but what if instead the primary target for your empathy in that moment was you?

What is my experience of this?

That means you don’t need to lose your empathy.

You just need to change the direction of your empathy in these situations.

And if you do, one of your greatest capacities, something that’s completely instinctive and natural to you, will become your greatest superpower for yourself in your love life.

Restoring Clarity and Confidence

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Trap #3: Blaming Yourself

The third trap that makes it hard to let go of a narcissist is blaming ourselves.

This is a question I regularly get from my love life members.

How do I forgive myself?

I feel so stupid. I feel so ashamed. I feel I’ve wasted my life on this person.

I am so beyond angry. I’m so beyond ashamed. I’m so beyond embarrassed. I’m so beyond regret, and feeling like I have wasted my life on this person.

We go into dating, we go into relationships assuming that someone else is playing by the same rules as us, the same playbook, the same moral code.

In truth, very few of us in this world are equipped to recognize and deal with narcissistic relationships when we are presented with them.

There are things that they are doing on instinct: lying, manipulating, gaslighting, coercive control, the way they maneuver us into situations where suddenly it feels really confusing.

We start to question ourselves.

Our confidence gets eroded.

We no longer feel like the person we were when we started the relationship.

We’re scared to get out of the relationship.

We no longer feel we’re worthy of anybody else.

They are acting on instinct. We are simply not trained for this kind of experience.

People who operate like this in relationships make it incredibly difficult for us to leave.

And often leaving these relationships comes with unpleasant or even catastrophic consequences.

The Teddy Bear Cholla Metaphor

There’s a plant in the desert. It’s called the teddy bear cholla plant.

But don’t be deceived by the name. There is nothing cuddly about this particular teddy bear.

In fact, it’s the most dangerous plant in the desert.

It looks like a fluffy, inviting cactus until you get near it.

Ow.

This can happen even with this glove on. One of them has just gone through. I can feel it.

And they have little barbs going in the wrong direction, so that once they’re in your skin, in order to pull it out, you actually have to do more damage before you can get it out.

That’s what a narcissistic relationship is like.

It gets its hooks in, and then in order to pull it out, you actually have to create a bigger wound.

Sometimes you have to do more damage to your life, whether it’s psychologically, emotionally, financially, or damage to your other relationships.

We find ourselves in really difficult situations leaving these relationships.

This is not pleasant at all. It won’t come off without…

Oh, look at that.

Finding Gratitude in Getting Free

Unless we forget, nowhere was it written that you were going to be able to leave this relationship.

History is littered with examples of people who were not able to leave these relationships.

You may have family or friends who went to their grave never leaving a relationship like this.

People in the generation before you who never got to escape a relationship like this.

There is a kind of gratitude we can feel in having gotten the escape velocity to get out of the orbit of a person like this and to actually find ourselves free again in the process.

It can be devastating to think of the time we’ve lost, but we have to actually remember that there was no guarantee we were going to have any time at the end of this relationship.

The fact that you’re still here watching this now means you do have time, and you have a different level of peace in your life now if you were able to get this person out of your life.

And yes, it’s infuriating if you live there that they got to ride off into the sunset and be okay afterwards, and that they didn’t have any repercussions for the way they treated you or the betrayals or any of that.

You may even feel that that person has never got any repercussions in life for the terrible things they’ve done, not just to you but to other people.

And that is one of the great injustices of life sometimes with people like this.

Give Up the Revenge Fantasy

But I try and remind myself that this fantasy we have of teaching someone like this a lesson is nothing more than a fantasy.

Because in reality, the people we’re talking about don’t learn lessons the way the rest of us do.

You could take everything from them. You could inflict the worst kind of wrath on them.

That wouldn’t mean that they would learn anything.

It might weaken them. It might take away their power or render them impotent.

But it wouldn’t make them learn.

And that is the catharsis I think so many of us want. It’s like they’ll finally learn.

But they’re not. It’s not in them to learn.

If they had the worst life ever as a result of some revenge you or I were able to inflict, they would simply become the world’s greatest victim and their ego would express itself that way.

So, I’m a big believer in giving up the revenge fantasy and instead recognizing that the ultimate reward for leaving a relationship like this is not revenge.