This is getting hard, testing me to my core. Why I’m going through all this is still uncertain. It’s going against everything I’ve learned growing up. I’m at a point where this is no choice but to follow through with the exact instructions. Over the last year through my writings and on The Humble Warrior Podcast I’ve mentioned several times what happened to me on 12/25/2014.
I heard that “VOICE” write a book, do a radio show and write a blog. Listening. This time I chose to listen because my way wasn’t working for me anymore. As I’ve chosen this path I’ve trusted that all is in Divine order and to do my part. During this assignment I believed that if I listened and followed my heart the path would provide clarity on which way to turn, what to do next. Still unclear.
TRUST. This is what I’ve had to lean on. It’s what helps me deal with the old fears of worry and anxiety that are trying to penetrate my mind and my soul. Why is that? Why do I need to finally break free from this type of suffering?
In truth I’m putting my relationship with God on the line. By listening, trusting and believing in my heart that Voice we call Intuition, that is the VOICE of God. It’s been a relationship with ups and downs but it is the priority relationship in my life. With God I’m everything, without God I’m nothing.
When I decided to go down this path, I made the commitment to follow through with these exact instructions and have surrendered to the outcome. Well my spirits are low, all I have now is my faith. It’s ok when one feels God has deserted him or her, its part of the journey. The truth is God doesn’t desert anyone, truth is one forgets to lean on Faith.
Yes. Faith. As my fingers hit the keyboard my spirits rise, rise and rise. I’m the most powerful being, I’m connected to all. How blessed and humbled at the same time that I’ve been given such a task. There is no more room for doubt, worry and anxiety on this mission. Be gone mother fucker. No more grasp on me. For I walk with the most High which dwells in my soul and will not let any circumstance get in the way of teaching how God works in me. God speaks me to through my heart. God speaks to me through family, friends, strangers, animals, food, books, nature, music, yoga, my body, mind and spirit. God is all encompassing. One may use the Universe and that’s cool to, whatever works for you.
I expect the best. My expectations are high. All the pain and suffering has been worth it. If I have to experience more of it to get the breakthrough I need then it shall be. See for a life of joy, love, peace, kindness and compassion I and me must learn to let go of I & me and work with all as One. Could it be that easy? Could it be that simple? Treat everyone, everything as God. For God created all in HIS/HER image. God created me, God created you, God is in all. Hmmm God is in all.
This article originally appeared on Chris Forte’s Blog
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