Both of my relationships are just fermenting in the ether right now and until I make a move to get out of one, everyone suffers.
About J. Matthew Peabody
My One Little Word for 2021: Love
Ya know, it does make the world go round.
Ya know, it does make the world go round.
Doubt Sets In
When your heart wants to leave but your head needs convincing.
When your heart wants to leave but your head needs convincing.
The Beginning of the End
It’s now been just over 72 hours since I told my wife about the affair.
It’s now been just over 72 hours since I told my wife about the affair.
The Truth May Set You Free, but It Also Stings Like a Bee
This was another moment where I could choose to be honest or lie…and this time I finally decided to be honest.
This was another moment where I could choose to be honest or lie…and this time I finally decided to be honest.
Me, a Sexual Predator?
My wife and I had stopped being intimate and I was lonely, feeling empty and yes, I was drawn to women who were writing about sex.
My wife and I had stopped being intimate and I was lonely, feeling empty and yes, I was drawn to women who were writing about sex.
Now She’s Gone
How could I not regret losing someone that fit so perfectly in my heart?
How could I not regret losing someone that fit so perfectly in my heart?
Before I Have To Say Goodbye
I need to leave my wife in January or this relationship, this friendship, this “affair” needs to come to an end…forever.
I need to leave my wife in January or this relationship, this friendship, this “affair” needs to come to an end…forever.
A Letter To My Daughter
On her 21st birthday.
On her 21st birthday.
High Hopes, Low Expectations
“If we’re going to say goodbye, it’s not going to be today.”
“If we’re going to say goodbye, it’s not going to be today.”
The Dark Side of an Extramarital Affair
This is not the man I wanted to be, not the husband, not the human being.
This is not the man I wanted to be, not the husband, not the human being.
Walking the Tightrope
If I fall, I lose everything; what’s behind and what’s ahead.
If I fall, I lose everything; what’s behind and what’s ahead.
The Hardest Decision I’ll Ever Make
I regret the pain that I have caused but I’ll never regret the time we have shared together.
I regret the pain that I have caused but I’ll never regret the time we have shared together.
Oh, Why Can’t This Be Love?
If only I had a dollar for every time someone told me to end my affair because these feelings that I have are not real.
If only I had a dollar for every time someone told me to end my affair because these feelings that I have are not real.
Dear Jane
I need to do the one thing I never wanted to do when this all started, I need to break your heart and mine.
I need to do the one thing I never wanted to do when this all started, I need to break your heart and mine.
Alone Again Without You
Were we together for 8 months or an eternity?
Were we together for 8 months or an eternity?