Both of my relationships are just fermenting in the ether right now and until I make a move to get out of one, everyone suffers.
Ya know, it does make the world go round.
When your heart wants to leave but your head needs convincing.
It’s now been just over 72 hours since I told my wife about the affair.
This was another moment where I could choose to be honest or lie…and this time I finally decided to be honest.
My wife and I had stopped being intimate and I was lonely, feeling empty and yes, I was drawn to women who were writing about sex.
How could I not regret losing someone that fit so perfectly in my heart?
I need to leave my wife in January or this relationship, this friendship, this “affair” needs to come to an end…forever.
On her 21st birthday.
“If we’re going to say goodbye, it’s not going to be today.”
This is not the man I wanted to be, not the husband, not the human being.
If I fall, I lose everything; what’s behind and what’s ahead.
I regret the pain that I have caused but I’ll never regret the time we have shared together.
If only I had a dollar for every time someone told me to end my affair because these feelings that I have are not real.
I need to do the one thing I never wanted to do when this all started, I need to break your heart and mine.
Were we together for 8 months or an eternity?